I’ve had it I’m such an idiot
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Six hours is great Headstock. You are detoxing now, and that's a good thing. The poison is leaving. Take care of yourself gently with fluids, tiny bit of food, and rest. Be kind to yourself. .
I came to understand health anxiety as a means of expressing anxiety in an understandable way. Found for myself that there were other, deeper reasons for me to feel anxious. I used 'health' because could not, or did not want to access the deeper stuff. I'm trying to do that now.
Turns out I'm not about to die at the next tick of the clock, but I did need to get and remain sober so that I could get to that deeper stuff. It's a journey worth encountering Headstock.
I withdrew from Valium just over a year ago. Found my health anxiety was at an all time high during that time. It's a slow process but I'm getting there. It can be the same for you Headstock.
I came to understand health anxiety as a means of expressing anxiety in an understandable way. Found for myself that there were other, deeper reasons for me to feel anxious. I used 'health' because could not, or did not want to access the deeper stuff. I'm trying to do that now.
Turns out I'm not about to die at the next tick of the clock, but I did need to get and remain sober so that I could get to that deeper stuff. It's a journey worth encountering Headstock.
I withdrew from Valium just over a year ago. Found my health anxiety was at an all time high during that time. It's a slow process but I'm getting there. It can be the same for you Headstock.
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Hi still sober feeling a little better ate something drinking water very disappointed in myself my wife and kids deserve better. I was two years sober best two years of my life what possessed me to try this again is beyond me alcohol is pure poison garbage
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Congrats on making it through the day!
Try to remember what an achievement the two years was. Instead of being disappointed that you drank yesterday, remember how proud you were for that two years and strive to get there again (and beyond)
We've all experienced this horrible phase of anxiety and self loathing so we can relate, but we also know it passes. Once it passes, you need to be on your guard, as feeling better can also put you at risk of drinking again. So remember your achievements, but also remember how horrible things feel now. You don't want to feel like this ever again.
Try to remember what an achievement the two years was. Instead of being disappointed that you drank yesterday, remember how proud you were for that two years and strive to get there again (and beyond)
We've all experienced this horrible phase of anxiety and self loathing so we can relate, but we also know it passes. Once it passes, you need to be on your guard, as feeling better can also put you at risk of drinking again. So remember your achievements, but also remember how horrible things feel now. You don't want to feel like this ever again.
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Originally Posted by Headstock 
I’ve drank all day today like a ******* dummy I had 2 years sober wtf did I do to **** this up I’m so stupid because last night I had 1 bottle wine and I’m convinced today I’m dying so I keep drinking
But we did it once and have some good sober time under our belts and we can do it again, all is not lost. Keep posting and reaching out, you are not alone and please be kind to yourself xx
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Great job Headstock! I know alot of us read these posts and really are pulling for you. We've all been there and know how you feel. You had 2 years and you don't lose that time you gain all of the experience that you had making your way toward it. Lean on those tools that you used before and keep going. Have a great day!
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Onwards we push Headstock.
Not the same, though similar. I'm going through massive nicotine cravings this morning and have to grab myself by the scruff of the neck to prevent me heading towards the tobacconist.
I'm NOT doing it! I want NOT TO SMOKE more than I want to smoke, and feel the same about alcohol. Eighty seven days today. It gets easier.
Push on Headstock. Distract. Oil your headstock.
Not the same, though similar. I'm going through massive nicotine cravings this morning and have to grab myself by the scruff of the neck to prevent me heading towards the tobacconist.
I'm NOT doing it! I want NOT TO SMOKE more than I want to smoke, and feel the same about alcohol. Eighty seven days today. It gets easier.
Push on Headstock. Distract. Oil your headstock.
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