Cant believe Im going through this again
Cant believe Im going through this again
Went 7 months sober, going to the gym, eating great. We moved to a new home in the mountains and during the transition it was stressful and I thought I could handle a couple. Ive been drinking every day since (about 8 months now).
Last night I drank all my beer and today I'm making a pact that I'm not buying anymore. I feel like crap, my mind is blurred. Instead of having a drink right now to ease the pain, I can fully see how far down I've fallen.
Just finished cleaning up and amazed my entire recycle bin is full of beer cans while I still have a mountain of empty Blue Moon bottles. How did I get here again?
On a side note during my sober time I made a video to myself telling not to ever go back. Not sure why but that video disappeared from my phone so it was almost like OK lets have a go at it again.
Thanks for reading and wish me luck.
Last night I drank all my beer and today I'm making a pact that I'm not buying anymore. I feel like crap, my mind is blurred. Instead of having a drink right now to ease the pain, I can fully see how far down I've fallen.
Just finished cleaning up and amazed my entire recycle bin is full of beer cans while I still have a mountain of empty Blue Moon bottles. How did I get here again?
On a side note during my sober time I made a video to myself telling not to ever go back. Not sure why but that video disappeared from my phone so it was almost like OK lets have a go at it again.
Thanks for reading and wish me luck.
Welcome back psilyguy, glad you have decided to give sobriety another chance. We only get so many do-overs as the say, how can we help you make this be the time that it lasts permanently?
Good for you Psilyguy. No time like the present. Yes, do not go buy anymore. We don't drink anymore and we can't have that in our homes. You did 7 months so you can do this. Do you need to change it up though? What will you do different this time? First thing I think is to make another video though. Tell your future self how wretched you feel right now. Welcome back Psilyguy.
You live in the mountains. An enormous gym surrounds you. You live IN the gym now. You need steam, take a hot bath. Seriously, I am not belittling your feelings. Not having a few main tools that you used last time is tough. But there are so many tools at your disposal. Cut wood. Chop wood. Stack wood. Find a mountain stream nearby and trade the steam room for icy dips (very therapeutic). Climb and hike until you are cross-eyed. Get a bike and become a climbing specialist. Those physical pursuits that served you so well exist in other forms. Maybe work more on the spiritual and cognitive side of things too so that you have other tools to help you get and stay sober.
you posted to someone a few days back after a long time away - did you feel this coming psilyguy ?
Gyms and such are great - but as the entirety of a recovery programme they're often found wanting.
what else can you do for your recovery? what can you add to your programme - besides posting here of course
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Gyms and such are great - but as the entirety of a recovery programme they're often found wanting.
what else can you do for your recovery? what can you add to your programme - besides posting here of course
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PSI- that is the danger with booze. 'Cunning, baffling, powerful'. If I picked up booze- it would be like I had not stopped at all. I know there is no way I can safely booze. I hope you make a plan, get on the ground support/keep posting here. There are lots of threads in the SR Newcomer's forum. Do some SR surfing and perhaps join some.
Support to you.
Support to you.
Psily - I tried so hard to become a social drinker after a period of sobriety. I drank for 7 more years & totally ruined my life. I'm glad you're taking action now, before things completely unravel. You learned something, and now you're back to get free again - this time for good. We know you can do it.
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Glad you made it back. Echo what other good folks have said about a recovery plan to underpin any and all other good habits such as eating well and exercise. We don't get unlimited chances - take this one!
Yeah, don't worry about the sleep thing. It is nearly universal. Tired but clear-headed is so preferable to death warmed-over hangover land. You'll sleep when your body needs to sleep. Right now it is frying other fish. Hang in there psilyguy and I'm glad you posted this morning.
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Psi, so glad you stopped and more glad you are sharing - this part sucks. now you can decide not to ever do it again. The first time someone told me, "You know you never have to have a drink again, right?" I was gobsmacked. It's a wild thought at first. But it's true.
Keep going.
Keep going.
Withdrawal is so hard. The psychological aspect is worse than the physical symptoms. For me it's 3-4 days of psychological torture that can be so overwhelming. The lack of sleep is the thing that is the hardest. It's hard to explain to non-alcoholics.
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