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Up until now I have done this alone, I haven’t had a drink since I got admitted to hospital on the 24th September 2017. I nearly lost my sight and was unable to walk properly due to alcohol misuse and nutrition deficiency. I was a broken and hugely embarrassed person. I spent nearly three weeks in hospital and eventually was able to walk again and regain my sight, when I went in I was majorly hallucinating which gradually went before I was discharged. I went home taking 14 tablets a day for my recovery process, but I had to ask What now? What have I got in place for when I get home so this doesn’t happen again! I was given the medication but that was all. I haven’t had a drink but it has been a huge battle.
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Over two years and no drinking all on your own? I would say that you are a very strong person dedicated to your recovery. I would also say that you don't have to go it alone. I have found this site to be brimming with kind and helpful people. Use it often and you won't feel alone in the battle again.
So glad you've made your way here!
So glad you've made your way here!
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Thank you, I didn’t have anyone going through and didn’t feel AA was right for me. I have asked GP for something like this because there is always a what if moment and what would I do,where would I turn to. I felt so alone and that there was no programme put in place for me. Thank you for your kind words.
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Hi Cocojanie - it's so good to have you with us. I felt all alone until I came here. We all understand what you've been through - like others can't. This is a great place for encouragement. Welcome!
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Originally Posted by Kjma 
Over two years and no drinking all on your own? I would say that you are a very strong person dedicated to your recovery. I would also say that you don't have to go it alone. I have found this site to be brimming with kind and helpful people. Use it often and you won't feel alone in the battle again.
So glad you've made your way here!
So glad you've made your way here!
Originally Posted by Hevyn
Hi Cocojanie - it's so good to have you with us. I felt all alone until I came here. We all understand what you've been through - like others can't. This is a great place for encouragement. Welcome!
I found quickly that people here knew exactly what I was going through and it's doubtful that I would have made it to day 10 otherwise, much less to day 39.
Its amazing that you've accomplished what you have without a support base.
I hope you can find support here as I have. Administrator
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Hi Cocojanie - welcome 
you'll certainly find support and hope here
If you're looking for more face to face support as well, there are other meeting based approaches besides AA - have a look at SMART recovery and Lifering perhaps?
http://www.smartrecovery.org.uk/
https://www.lifering.org
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you'll certainly find support and hope here
If you're looking for more face to face support as well, there are other meeting based approaches besides AA - have a look at SMART recovery and Lifering perhaps?
http://www.smartrecovery.org.uk/
https://www.lifering.org
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Originally Posted by Cocojanie
Up until now I have done this alone, I haven’t had a drink since I got admitted to hospital on the 24th September 2017. I nearly lost my sight and was unable to walk properly due to alcohol misuse and nutrition deficiency. I was a broken and hugely embarrassed person. I spent nearly three weeks in hospital and eventually was able to walk again and regain my sight, when I went in I was majorly hallucinating which gradually went before I was discharged. I went home taking 14 tablets a day for my recovery process, but I had to ask What now? What have I got in place for when I get home so this doesn’t happen again! I was given the medication but that was all. I haven’t had a drink but it has been a huge battle.
There is SIGNIFICANT scientific evidence that addiction is far more than "it's your own damn fault." A lot of this evidence has been discovered in the recent decade - neuroscience is a very new science, and there's even more that people don't understand.
The people that need to be embarrassed are those that intentionally hurt others - not those that unintentionally hurt themselves for likely complex neurochemical reasons.
There's some truth to that old adage, "We're sick people trying to get better; not bad people trying to get good."
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Welcome and do stick around! This forum and participants are so supportive and knowledgeable about recovery. It’s a great place to learn and feel like part of a family. It really helps to cheer others on too. So glad you found us!
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Originally Posted by Cityboy
Exactly what Kjma and Hevyn said.
I found quickly that people here knew exactly what I was going through and it's doubtful that I would have made it to day 10 otherwise, much less to day 39.
Its amazing that you've accomplished what you have without a support base.
I found quickly that people here knew exactly what I was going through and it's doubtful that I would have made it to day 10 otherwise, much less to day 39.
Its amazing that you've accomplished what you have without a support base.
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Originally Posted by Cocojanie
Thank you, I had close family and my partner who has been my rock but no one who can fully understand the dark times and battle that you go through.
It is full of people who have been there and do not want to see others suffer the same.
When I told my wife I was quitting she said "you're not that bad you pretty much only drink beer".
I could have used that as a free pass to start drinking again but instead realized she has no idea what my drinking is about.
It's not her fault or a bad thing she just has never been there.
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Welcome Coco! I'm on Day 50 and outside my husband and daughter THIS is my main support system. I come here every day and at the very least do some reading. There's so much information and support on here
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You're certainly not alone here. I do need some support/contact with people as isolating was a big thing for me and usually ended up with me in a mess and drunk so staying in contact is critical.
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