I'm back and I have good news!
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I'm back and I have good news!
Hi Everyone
It's been a while since I've been here, in my cycle of endless day 1's.
Well I thought I'd pop in and say hi because I've reached an important milestone today...
50 DAYS SOBER!!
Yes FIFTY!
The longest stretch before this I managed in the past 4 years was 36 days so to say I am thrilled is an understatement.
It has been very difficult at times but I can honestly say I dont currently have any conflict over whether I am going to drink or not, I genuinely don't want to.
I have struggled with my depression over the past 50 days but I'm viewing that as a positive thing in itself, because by stripping away my mask the problems are rising to the surface, and that's fine. Let's get them out and I can start to deal with them instead of keeping pushing them down and feeding them with booze.
I have managed to change my diet and have lost 5lb, my sleep is gradually improving, I'm waking up earlier, I have been more creative and painting, I've even been to the theatre and a date with my husband and I've been a better parent. Every Friday me and my son have a day together and we've been out doing loads of fun stuff, instead of me lying on the sofa all day with a hangover drowning in regret.
I am so so proud and grateful that I've reached this milestone. Bring on the next 50 days 😍
It's been a while since I've been here, in my cycle of endless day 1's.
Well I thought I'd pop in and say hi because I've reached an important milestone today...
50 DAYS SOBER!!
Yes FIFTY!
The longest stretch before this I managed in the past 4 years was 36 days so to say I am thrilled is an understatement.
It has been very difficult at times but I can honestly say I dont currently have any conflict over whether I am going to drink or not, I genuinely don't want to.
I have struggled with my depression over the past 50 days but I'm viewing that as a positive thing in itself, because by stripping away my mask the problems are rising to the surface, and that's fine. Let's get them out and I can start to deal with them instead of keeping pushing them down and feeding them with booze.
I have managed to change my diet and have lost 5lb, my sleep is gradually improving, I'm waking up earlier, I have been more creative and painting, I've even been to the theatre and a date with my husband and I've been a better parent. Every Friday me and my son have a day together and we've been out doing loads of fun stuff, instead of me lying on the sofa all day with a hangover drowning in regret.
I am so so proud and grateful that I've reached this milestone. Bring on the next 50 days 😍
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Join Date: Jul 2017
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Thank you everyone for your support!
I forgot another big benefit of sobriety.. I haven't had a single sick day in the past 7 weeks!
I said I am currently not interested in drinking, which is true but I am very aware of the need not to become complacent. I still 'crave' on a daily basis, even posting on this forum today triggered a craving. But although I have the same flattery tightening in my chest feeling, there is no back and forth in my mind, with my AV, about whether I should drink. I've already made the decision. I feel I've done a lot of work on my subconscious/ AV these past weeks and its starting to pay off.
I am so glad to be sharing my 50 day milestone here, I can't tell you the shame of crawlincrawling countless times on those day 1's, desperate for help, feeling like it would never stick.
It's early days, I know that... but for the first time in a long time, I have hope, I feel in control and I feel like I have a future.
I forgot another big benefit of sobriety.. I haven't had a single sick day in the past 7 weeks!
I said I am currently not interested in drinking, which is true but I am very aware of the need not to become complacent. I still 'crave' on a daily basis, even posting on this forum today triggered a craving. But although I have the same flattery tightening in my chest feeling, there is no back and forth in my mind, with my AV, about whether I should drink. I've already made the decision. I feel I've done a lot of work on my subconscious/ AV these past weeks and its starting to pay off.
I am so glad to be sharing my 50 day milestone here, I can't tell you the shame of crawlincrawling countless times on those day 1's, desperate for help, feeling like it would never stick.
It's early days, I know that... but for the first time in a long time, I have hope, I feel in control and I feel like I have a future.
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Congratulations!!!!!!! Doesn't it feel amazing!!!! I recently hit 6 months and the amazing feelings just continue. I too had to deal with what I've been self medicating for years, an anxiety disorder. I'm taking care of myself now and feeling wonderful!!! Congrats again and enjoy your new lease on an amazing life!
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