venuscat

You are not a downer at all and I love you very much dear Jewel. s
I think going to that meeting tonight is a fantastic idea.
And perhaps you can start talking to your pastor's wife again....she seems like an amazing support. xx

That happened to me....I kept trying to stop (2012) and getting a few days, or even two weeks a few times, and then I would drink again and be wretchedly ill as well. Hangovers that were so bad that people thought I was ill with some disease....well I was.

Itchy said this years ago, and I have never forgotten it: "In the end, I was drinking to manage my drinking."

This thing gets worse. I was just so ill physically and mentally, and I was self-medicating to try and stop the pain. And I hated myself as well. But everyone here was so kind, and they loved me until I could find a way to even like myself again.

With you every step dear Jewel. ❤️

Jewel72

Thank you, Venus. That means a lot. It has gotten a lot worse over the last few months. I’ve got to stop this now. Thanks for being there.

JimiC

Hey everybody, day one. I was doing good with 50+ days before I chose to drink on Jan. 1st. It’s been rough since, so here I am!

ReadyAtLast

Hi everyone,
It's good to see you too Venus and thank you for your kind words. I'm hanging my head in shame again but trying to keep it above water and just keep going forward. The support and kindness from everyone on here is just incredible. How are things with you? Congrats on your 7 years

Welcome Althea-please don't be embarrassed or ashamed. We are all in the same boat and know exactly how you feel. There is no judgment or shaming here just support and friendship.

Basket-I can relate so much. Children,as much as we love them, can drive us to drink-not in a bad way. More of a 'me time' and 'relaxing' when they are asleep. I'm way beyond that stage now though.

Tink-how was your appointment? I hope it was productive for you and a good step forward.

Jewel-great to see you back so soon. I hope your meeting goes well and it is helpful for you and you meet people who can support you irl.

I love the way you say things Venus-'drinking just to manage the drinking' that's so powerful and sums it up. Every day thinking about drinking just to feel a bit better. Utter madness.

Day 3. Feel better than I did this morning although I've eaten a lot. I've done a lot of gardening today so feel better for being outside and doing physical work.
Hopefully I will sleep better tonight and feel refreshed tomorrow. I know as each day goes on it gets better. Although felt sluggish and kept forgetting things today. Scary how the mental impact is so chronic.

Good night all, or day depending where you are x

ReadyAtLast

Welcome back Jimi.

venuscat

Welcome back dear Jimi. s xx

I relapsed in 2014 RAL....so just over 5 years at this point. s xxxxxxx

Hi Lixie love.....any luck with your library hunting yet? s xx

Tinkerbeau

Hi Ready appt was ok feel bit like im just answering same questions over again, got to wait to have appt with dr in march now. I just feel so down and tearful at the moment, i want a better life but I'm so lonely and don't see any way of that changing ?! Sorry just feeling sorry for myself.
well done on day 3 thats great and im sure you will feel better again tomorrow

Reid82

I've a busy few days ahead with work. We have taken on a new Field Application Specialist in my company and I have to bring him around key accounts/customers tomorrow and on Thursday. I've done this sort of thing before but takes a bit of organizing and planning.

I'm looking forward to a weekend away shortly too, in 5 weeks time. Going to Edinburgh in Scotland for the weekend. In the past these trips would have been spent in some Irish pub from dawn to dusk Now I can do some real sightseeing!

venuscat

((((Tink)))) ❤️❤️

We are here..... s
And sending love and hugs. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

venuscat

You can go to Holyrood Palace Reid!!! s

.....and somehow it sounds hysterical that Edinburgh is filled with Irish pubs.

Tinkerbeau

Thank you so much x

Reid82

Must have a look at that! I know myself and my friend are going for dinner here, looks nice- https://www.thewitchery.com/dine

ReadyAtLast

oh I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling down. We are all here for you. I know it's not the same as irl but you can say anything and everything here and someone will listen. Would you consider AA even just a a place to meet likeminded people in the early days. I went a few times and everyone was so friendly and welcoming. I was shy, nervous, painfully so but there was so much support and friendship.

I know people suggest taking up new hobbies and interests but that maybe pretty scary so soon. I like to go to libraries, find them very peaceful places and even interacting with the librarian is some human contact. Or how about yoga? I love it as you don't have to speak to anyone but you do get to recognise people and even a smile or a hello from someone helps me feel less alone. Plus it physically and mentally helps. I'm talking myself into going back to it regularly now too

it will get better as the days go by, The first few days and weeks are pretty rough at times but it does get better.

ReadyAtLast

oh fabulous! Edinburgh is one of my favourite cities! We were there in November and the sights are fantastic! We did the castle, Real Mary Kings Close(brilliant!) The Edinburgh Dungeon (best of the lot and highly recommended!) Ghost tours of the graveyards at night are recommended and will keep you out of the pub. If you have small people with you then Camera Obscura and Illusions is fabulous and Dynamic Earth. If you like gardening RBGE is a must. Apologies if you know all this already oh we went to the parliament building too. It's such a strange construction! They were not sitting that day but still interesting to look round!

The restaurant looks fabulous

Reid82

Thanks for the info- I've never been there before so that was helpful!

ReadyAtLast

No problem There are many free museums and places too though not as many as Glasgow. I'd recommend booking in advance if there are places you really want to see.you can get the tickets cheaper and skip the line

It's such a wonderful city-it's so compact and walkable.

Dee74

Hi Tink - try and be patient - as long as you stay sober and you keep building a sober life, you love good things will happen

what kinds of things do you enjoy doing?

D

Dee74

Hi Jewel I'm glad you're back.
I think you need a new plan tho?

do you have any ideas?

D

Robbie64

Day 1 (again) for me. Though in just under 2 minutes it will be the start of day 2 for me.

I had just popped outside about 10 minutes ago to get some fresh air and was staring at the sky because I though I noticed some movement. Sure enough it was a shooting star. I believe they are a sign of good luck so here's hoping that's true. Strange thing is it was a green ball of fire. I've seen shooting stars before but never a one with a bright green fireball.

It looked exactly like the one in this video

https://www.theguardian.com/science/...y-poland-video

I live about 6 miles away from the sea and it looked like it fell into the sea. Quite a spooky experience to see it.

Linners820

Hi everyone. Day 2 here. Had a full day of work, then physical therapy, then some grocery shopping and meal prep. Just now sitting down to finally relax.

Jewel, let us know how the Celebrate Recovery meeting is!

Today was unseasonable warm here, plus the groundhog says we're going to have an early spring so that makes me happy! I didn't have time to today, but I hope to get out for a walk this week. I either go to a wooded park with trails and a lake, or to the beach, or just around my neighborhood. It does a lot to lost my spirits especially in winter.