Guilt, shame, regret
Jr you are correct.
Drinking never crossed my mind. The only thing I wanted to do was hug everyone I've wronged and ask for forgiveness.
I am hoping this is a sign that my way of thinking and coping is heading in the right direction.
Drinking never crossed my mind. The only thing I wanted to do was hug everyone I've wronged and ask for forgiveness.
I am hoping this is a sign that my way of thinking and coping is heading in the right direction.
Fish - Add me to the long list of those who've had the same thoughts. I felt as though I was awakening from a long sleep - just realizing for the first time what I'd done and said, & how hurtful I had been. Torturing myself with negative thoughts almost sabotaged my sobriety - so I'm glad you're talking about this now. The person who behaved that way was not the real Fishkiller. Alcohol caused me to behave in a deplorable way - but that person has left - and she's not coming back.
I'm really glad you're here to talk things over.
I'm really glad you're here to talk things over.
I felt the same way today Fishkiller.
My immediate response was to drink, and to smoke. I see now these are learned methods designed to destoy and punish myself, dressed in the weird guise of the con.
I'm trying to get better, and acted on neither. It is very painful. I await the day when my fair heart blossoms.
I'm so glad you posted, it helped me a lot.
My immediate response was to drink, and to smoke. I see now these are learned methods designed to destoy and punish myself, dressed in the weird guise of the con.
I'm trying to get better, and acted on neither. It is very painful. I await the day when my fair heart blossoms.
I'm so glad you posted, it helped me a lot.
I almost didn't post because I felt I was just feeling sorry for myself but I'm glad I did. Felt good to get it out.
Felt even better when someone replied almost instantly.
This place is great!
If you are feeling the need to let it out come here. Someone will be here.
Hey team. I meant to put a after "when my fair heart blossoms." Don't want to come across as too much of a wankeur.
Feeling a lot better now. So glad I didn't act on the impulse. Good lesson in, "it will pass".
Feeling a lot better now. So glad I didn't act on the impulse. Good lesson in, "it will pass".
JK It's all good. I didn't even think about it until you said something.
Another word to add to the list, as per an old guy that was at the meeting I went to last night, is "resentment". Speaking for myself, there are definitely people towards which I have spent years harboring ill feelings. People you just can't bring yourself to forgive. Just another part of the cycle of maintaining a dependence on alcohol. Don't know how I'll do at letting go of these feelings long term as I'm in uncharted waters now. We'll see.
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