Derringer

My favorite band too mate.

The lyrics to 40 pretty much describe how sobriety happened for me.


I waited patiently for the Lord
He inclined and heard my cry
He brought me up out of the pit
Out of the mire and clay
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
How long to sing this song
How long to sing this song
How long, how long, how long
How long, to sing this song
He set my feet upon a rock
And made my footsteps firm
Many will see
Many will see and fear
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
How long to sing this song
How long to sing this song
How long, how long, how long
How long, to sing this song


Get out from under the alcoholic rubble
There is a spirit stronger than alcohol
He's waiting for you to turn to him.

DriGuy

No, I didn't feel confident either at that stage of alcoholism. There isn't much about out of control drinking that inspires confidence. I think confidence is of huge importance, but I only gained it through success. Failure is the exact opposite of confidence.

At about a week of sobriety, I got my first taste of confidence. It came as a dim spark of recognition that I could do this recovery thing, probably that I could do it for life. It got stronger as months and years passed. Confidence grows with success, not failure. And it gets more and more powerful.

We talk about over-confidence. I'm not sure what that is, however. I can't ever remember feeling overconfident. I remember doing a fairly good job at appearing bravado, and recognizing that some people were actually attracted to bravado. But bravado is not confidence. It's shallow and for show. Real confidence feels more private and internal, and it makes bravado unnecessary.

I can almost promise you that confidence comes with sobriety, and I can almost promise that it only comes with sobriety.

August252015

^^^Love that.

I heard someone say in a meeting yesterday:
"I don't live thinking about being an alcoholic anymore. I do what I do and it's my life now. I do know that my disease is in remission, like my sponsor who got cancer 2 yr in and it went in remission. His came back 25 yrs later. My alcoholism would come back if I stop living as a recovered person."

To me that's a great description of being confident- I'm recovered - yet not over-confident.

Dee74

just popping in to wish you the best for day one sortofhomecoming

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sortofhomecomin

Thank you!

Surrendered19

Is today Day 1 or tomorrow SOHC?? Tell us the plan for today and tomorrow. Rooting for you and wishing you health, calm and quiet in recovery.

sortofhomecomin

In my part of the world, tomorrow i.e. 1st Feb. Dee74 is in Australia so it's already Saturday.

August252015

What's the plan today and tomorrow like Surrendered wondered?

sortofhomecomin

I have a detailed plan. For confidentiality/anonymity reasons I have no intention of sharing it in a semi-public forum. But essentially, a modified/updated version of this:

https://imgur.com/a/hX9WTf2

lessgravity

So is today day one?

sortofhomecomin

No, February 1st is day one. That's tomorrow, where I live.

MissOverIt

sortofhomecomin

Thanks, MissOverIt. Yes I've had periods off it too.

Actually I was on this forum back in 2010, and lost my username as I no longer use the email address associated with that user name. I've had multiple periods of sobriety and relapsing. I never made the full year but made it to 9 months in 2018/2019.

sortofhomecomin

That song was a slow-burner in the early years of U2. They played it at the end of every concert during the early 1980s, even though it was never a well known U2 song. It was a fan favourite back then, and probably still is for the old time U2 fans. Including me.

sortofhomecomin

Yeah I think it's back to rehab with me tbh. Like's it's 11pm in Ireland and I have 8 more cans of cider, and frankly I'm going to drink them. I'm realistic enough, just about, to realise that these are not the actions of a man that is quite ready to stop cold turkey.

Ok so if I'm not on the forum in the next few weeks, I'm most likely in rehab. Thanks for all the help in the past, present and future.

Dee74

how long would that process be, to get into rehab?

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Coz

Hi SOHC
Just a thought from a newby that did day 1 yesterday - it is late where you are. Why not leave the ciders and hit bed for the evening instead?
It will be much better for your rehab if you restrain from the binge beforehand.
Take care of yourself and think about a good night sleep and waking up better than you would if you drank them.

sortofhomecomin

I can get into St Pats within a week or so. It's a very good place.

HeadEast

I'm wishing you luck. If you go to rehab, please check back. Otherwise, we are here to help.

Dee74

Ok - wishing you luck, man - and do try really hard not to drink this week away...

it's one thing to overshoot a planned quit date, but it's another to overshoot a rehab intake.

D