Counting Days...
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I count and am living in Day 59. It is just one of the tools in my tool box. But I've seen many opinions on this site about that topic. Most of the folks with long term sobriety dismiss counting days and say that that really doesn't help. They tell folks not to worry too much about the day count but just stay sober. But I'm going to keep counting for now.
What are you doing to stay sober? That's the important part, like surrendered points out.
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LastinLine - it was like learning to live, sort of again and also in a new way if that duality makes sense. Every choice matters - and framing it as what I started GETTING to do bc I was sober, rather than any negative words (like I CAN'T xyz bc I don't drink) was a big mental shift.
Some of the most (now seeming) basic stuff was jaw dropping. Someone would say something and the penny would drop - like the first time I heard someone say, "You know, you don't actually HAVE to drink again."
Glad you are here.
I am soooo bored. I didn't know a person could be this bored. It's impossible to be bored when you're drunk every night. Or maybe you really are bored, but you're just too drunk to realize it. I mean if you drank like I did. And then you pass out and never realize you were ever bored.
The best cure for boredom is to do something.
I spent a few months sitting on my sofa waiting for something to happen, til I realised that was drinking associated behaviour.
Sober me had to get up off the couch and do stuff to get something out of each day
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"I just watched flirty dancing with my wife."
Lol, that's terrifying man. Wife and I have been watching a few chick flicks lately too. I guess it's my punishment for staying drunk for a decade and ignoring her most of the time.
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I had to learn to correctly identify stuff like "boredom" - usually not what's actually going on, but rather an emotion or frustration or something that I was used to "handling" with ever more alcohol.
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Oblivion is not really a viable long term cure for boredom
The best cure for boredom is to do something.
I spent a few months sitting on my sofa waiting for something to happen, til I realised that was drinking associated behaviour.
Sober me had to get up off the couch and do stuff to get something out of each day
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The best cure for boredom is to do something.
I spent a few months sitting on my sofa waiting for something to happen, til I realised that was drinking associated behaviour.
Sober me had to get up off the couch and do stuff to get something out of each day
D
Today, I was just trying to mount a little LED grow light on a metal shelf. It's just one of those metal shelves you can buy at Home Depot and put together in different ways with plastic connectors. It was already put together, my wife has some flowers on it and I just needed to remove one small section. It's really very simple the way those things go together, but I just stared at that thing like I needed to construct an interstellar spacecraft.
My brain feels weird, it's like neurons are firing, but no connections are really being made and it's all just one big short circuit.
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Thanks for the encouragement.
With all the stuff I have to do and can do I should never be bored.
Usually when I got that feeling drinking is exactly what I would do.
Thanks for posting this
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^Welcome. It was such a valuable lesson and change in perspective. I mean, how freaking boring was it drinking vodka every night?!
And LIL - I'd recommend the book Living Sober. It describes the first yr of sobriety and is really useful and an easy read, too.
Expectations of "being better" can be huge stumbling blocks for people- not seeing (enough) improvement fast enough can make a lot of us think it's just better to go back to drinking. we knew how THAT made us feel and the change is uncomfortable, to say the least.
And LIL - I'd recommend the book Living Sober. It describes the first yr of sobriety and is really useful and an easy read, too.
Expectations of "being better" can be huge stumbling blocks for people- not seeing (enough) improvement fast enough can make a lot of us think it's just better to go back to drinking. we knew how THAT made us feel and the change is uncomfortable, to say the least.
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Hi everyone. I think I haven't posted for a couple of days. I thought today was 22 days, but it's actually 23 days sober now.
My brain cells are scattered all over the multiverse. I'm going to be the first space cadet for the new space force.
My bored low mood feeling has improved a little more over the last couple of days. There are a few rewarding moments, like my wife and I sitting together at the dining table in the mornings, drinking coffee and talking before I start work. Then tonight when I arrived home, she greeted me and was all huggy/kissy and smiles. Wow, I can't even remember the last time that happened. 10 years ago?
I don't feel like I'm out of the woods by a long ways, but I do feel a little more positive.
My brain cells are scattered all over the multiverse. I'm going to be the first space cadet for the new space force.
My bored low mood feeling has improved a little more over the last couple of days. There are a few rewarding moments, like my wife and I sitting together at the dining table in the mornings, drinking coffee and talking before I start work. Then tonight when I arrived home, she greeted me and was all huggy/kissy and smiles. Wow, I can't even remember the last time that happened. 10 years ago?
I don't feel like I'm out of the woods by a long ways, but I do feel a little more positive.
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Nice work! What really helped me in my decades long battle with alcohol was the support of my wife. No matter what drunken thing I did, or foolish thing I said, she was always there for me. Once I began genuinely staying sober, I realized that my "personal sobriety journey" rightfully included her.
Stay the course...life does indeed get better.
Stay the course...life does indeed get better.
The one thing I would say is that now that we're sober we can do anything! The old "I'm bored cos I'm sober" idea is really because we were stuck in a routine of simply getting messed up and having no drive, no ambition, etc.
We can now simply go out and do new things, new hobbies, etc. But it takes up getting up off our backsides and doing it I'm afraid.
The one thing I would say is that now that we're sober we can do anything! The old "I'm bored cos I'm sober" idea is really because we were stuck in a routine of simply getting messed up and having no drive, no ambition, etc.
We can now simply go out and do new things, new hobbies, etc. But it takes up getting up off our backsides and doing it I'm afraid.
We can now simply go out and do new things, new hobbies, etc. But it takes up getting up off our backsides and doing it I'm afraid.
A week ago I'd just click on the TV.
Lately I've been forcing myself to pick a project and get going. I find once I start all is good. Spent 10 hours yesterday working on my shop when I just set out to do a few things. It just snowballed.
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Sometimes, it even takes just REMINDING myself that I can do stuff. The pause and conscious thought "I get to ...." is so helpful sometimes, even here a little ways in sobriety. And that's OK! It's one tool we have to keep going and live more.
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Hello everyone. Still counting days. Day 29 today.
I had a rough couple of days yesterday and day before. I had the worst alcohol cravings. Hard to really describe it. It was a bit different and a lot more intense than I had the first week after I quit. Like many other things, I didn't expect it at all. I thought anything like that was long gone. Maybe it was just due to the fact that I was a little stressed over a couple of things 2 days ago, then yesterday my friends were calling me leaving messages inviting me to a Superbowl party. I feel sort of bad because I didn't even answer or call anyone back. Because I felt like I might drink.
Oh well, today is another day and I feel better. No cravings today and feeling pretty good.
I had a rough couple of days yesterday and day before. I had the worst alcohol cravings. Hard to really describe it. It was a bit different and a lot more intense than I had the first week after I quit. Like many other things, I didn't expect it at all. I thought anything like that was long gone. Maybe it was just due to the fact that I was a little stressed over a couple of things 2 days ago, then yesterday my friends were calling me leaving messages inviting me to a Superbowl party. I feel sort of bad because I didn't even answer or call anyone back. Because I felt like I might drink.
Oh well, today is another day and I feel better. No cravings today and feeling pretty good.
Congrats on Day 29. It's soon going to be a full month.
I don't know the Dio song but I love that Queensryche song. It's their second biggest hit in the UK, after 'Silent Lucidity' which is another good song.
Yes, that's where I got the name from. I can't really remember why I chose that though, I was all sorts of screwed up in the head the day I found this place and needed a posting name. I was drawing a total blank and somehow came up with that when the song popped into my head for whatever reason. Seems like I remember that song was alternately playing in my head along with Queensryche Jet City Woman.
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On the other hand, there's deep relaxation.. have you tried meditation?
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Good job fighting the AV my rock n roll brother!
Goes to show we must remain ready at all times. Maybe not on full alert but prepared to recognize and destroy the enemy whenever it shows its disgusting face.
Dont feel bad about not returning calls.
This is about you and only you.
Congrats on 30!
Goes to show we must remain ready at all times. Maybe not on full alert but prepared to recognize and destroy the enemy whenever it shows its disgusting face.
Dont feel bad about not returning calls.
This is about you and only you.
Congrats on 30!
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