Red78

Nichole's funeral was today 3pm in USA 28th December.
I am told that the service was beautiful, I wish I could've been there.

The song played for her by her husband was
Into The Light by In This Moment - her favourite band, one she got me hooked on. The lyrics are perfect, if I knew how to attach the song i would but can't figure it out right now, so here are the lyrics.

Can anybody tell me why
We're lying here on the floor
And neither of us can barely breathe at all
The doctors saying hold on tight
As we say our last goodbyes
And this is, a moment that changes our whole lives

And I still believe in the good
And I still believe in the light
And I wanna feel the sun
I wanna free you tonight
And I still believe in the good
And I still believe in the light
And I wanna feel the sun
I wanna free you tonight

I'm staring deep into your eyes
They're telling me the time has come
And I know you're ready to rise and sail home
The room is filling up with light
As we say our last goodnight
I thank you for everything second of your life

And I still believe in the good
And I still believe in the light
And I wanna feel the sun
I wanna free you tonight
And I still believe in the good
And I still believe in the light
And I wanna feel the sun
I wanna free you tonight

I'm falling, watching as your hurting
I'm down here I'm on my knees
How can I survive
And you turn to me and promise me you're ready
And tell me you'll be waiting on the other side

And I still believe in the good
And I still believe in the light
And I wanna feel the sun
I wanna free you tonight
And I still believe in the good
And I still believe in the light
And I wanna feel the sun
I wanna free you tonight.


I have been thinking a lot over the last couple of days about this loss. My heart had a deep ripping of sadness and despair upon hearing the news, why why why and please don't let this be real, she is too young it's not time and just not fair.
We never know the reasons why but after talking to so many of her beautiful friends here, about how much she meant to them and how much she touched their lives, and knowing of all her beautiful friends in physical life I've realized that she may have done the job she was here to do. She has touched the heart of so many and bought soooo much to others lives and healed through just being her.

Through my grief I have seen the wonderful gift that is her. Nichole has shown me kindness, compassion and empathy, she has given life back into my beliefs, shown me that I am worthy and given me the gift of friendship. In the grief I have gained understanding of something I didn't have before. I will take the things she has shown me and give them to others.

I have gained the connection to so many others here through her and her passing and I am so grateful for this - daisybelle, erratic, chloerose, palmersage, snitch, strawberry plus more I know I'm missing.

I am forever grateful for your presence in my life and in your death.

There is always something beautiful to come from something so horrendous, we just have to find it...

Facing this sober over the last few days has been a gift in itself but the greatest gift of all is my continued sobriety and knowing I will take us there.

Rest well my friend, I love you...

Daisybelle

Thank you Red for sharing this beautiful moving tribute to our dearly loved and sadly missed Nichole. xx

snitch

Awww Red. Such beautiful words. Am so choked up right now. R.I.P beautiful Nichole. You will be missed but never forgotten ❤❤❤❤

ChloeRose63

I have no words for how touching your post is to me, Red.
My ♡ is swelling with emotions...blessings.

Red78

Thank you Chloe for the video..

Hevyn

Thank you, Red for your heartfelt post. Nichole would be so happy to know how she impacted your life. (I'm sure she does know.) Prayers for you to be comforted.

Dee74

Thanks for sharing that Red.

In order to try and preserve Nicoles anonymity - something I know was important to her - I've changed a few references of her real name to her user name today both here and in other threads.



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Dascha

May she rest peacefully, and in the hearts of her family and friends.

HeadEast

I listened to that song and had to grab a box of tissues. Thanks for sharing Red and Chloe. RIP Nicole.

Anna

Thank you, Red, for your lovely tribute to Nichole.

Red78

Thanks Dee, I should've thought better of it from the beginning.. Shock and grief got the better of my clear thinking..

PalmerSage

Thank you, Red for keeping us connected and informed about Nichole, a person who was so important to our SR experience. That is such a beautiful song. Hugs and strength to you.

Steely

Yours was a beautiful tribute to your friend Red.

I played the video.

"We still believe in the good."

She's free, Red.

So very sad.

Strawberry18

Fly high sweet Nicole xxx

Erratic

thanks red x