Back and trying this again....
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Join Date: Aug 2019
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Back and trying this again....
Hey everyone... I was here a few months ago and had 6 days sober and then i did 5 days sober which for me was a long streak as i cant usually go more than 1 day without.... but then i just went full on back into it... Its been progressing very rapidly and im constantly sick and miserable... So today is day 1 for me....taking it one day at a time and just trying to reach the pillow sober is what helped me last time... And thinking of how good it feels to wake up feeling good and not suffering every morning. The addiction really baffles me because I will literally just be in my house drinking and getting high and im not even doing anything....and its really not fun... If i wasnt using i would just be in the house not doing anything either...but with getting messed up i have to spend a bunch of money and be destroyed the next day it just makes no sense why it keeps seeming like a good idea to repeat this cycle when im not getting anything from it.... I guess thats the whole addiction thing but intellectually i know its a bad idea that i never get anything from it... So i dont know thats where i am at.... Im going to look up local meetings and check in on the different forums here.....glad to be back
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Join Date: Dec 2019
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None of it makes any sense at all does it? I am living in Day 36 for the first time in a few decades. Before this I didn't have 5 or 6 days sober ever. Not once. I would occasionally not drink a day here and there but only because I was so poisoned and toxic, I felt like I would die. Welcome back and let's hit 2020 and the new decade with a few days sober under our belts. Clear, calm, feeling better and on our right roads.
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Location: Atlanta
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Glad you're back. Some don't make it.
Maybe if you found some outside interests you wouldn't be sober and bored, rather than high and bored.
Have you thought of trying AA or another recovery program?
An idle mind is the devil's playground. And I think that's exceptionally true for us predisposed to alcohol and drug abuse.
I know I have to get out and do something, even if it's just going downtown and walking around.
It sure beats languishing drugged or high and even bored out of my mind sober.
I have to take care of my mental health, as well as my physical health in order to lead a sober lifestyle.
Let's make this your last day one, okay?
Maybe if you found some outside interests you wouldn't be sober and bored, rather than high and bored.
Have you thought of trying AA or another recovery program?
An idle mind is the devil's playground. And I think that's exceptionally true for us predisposed to alcohol and drug abuse.
I know I have to get out and do something, even if it's just going downtown and walking around.
It sure beats languishing drugged or high and even bored out of my mind sober.
I have to take care of my mental health, as well as my physical health in order to lead a sober lifestyle.
Let's make this your last day one, okay?
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
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That's the point- addiction is NOT logical, so applying logic can be confusing. Addiction is a thing to which- all that matters is being fed. Always the next drink, drug or whatever. It ignores logic, families, careers- and in my case, my life.
Acceptance that under no circumstances can I drink safely (I would die, no arguments)- is where I am. Also willpower for me is useless without daily support.
Support to you.
Acceptance that under no circumstances can I drink safely (I would die, no arguments)- is where I am. Also willpower for me is useless without daily support.
Support to you.
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