41 Days
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41 Days
I'm just checking in.
I lost my day 1 thread - but that's okay. I don't feel like digging it up
I go to AA pretty much every day.
I have to say that I greatly enjoy it. I am not religious and I have never really believed in a god - but this time, that's not keeping me from going back. It gives me a place to go during my old "witching hour." And that's huge. And I am spiritual - when I stopped going to AA because of the "God stuff" previously, I was just using that as an excuse. In reality, my AV was taking over and I just wanted to keep drinking. And I did.
My sobriety is the most important thing in my life.
Drinking never solves anything and almost always makes things worse.
One day at a time.
If you're newer than me, please don't give up on sobriety. Live to fight another day.
If you're further along than me, please let me be a lesson for your sobriety. It's fresh in my mind - drinking sucks. There's nothing to romanticize. All it ever did was make me sick and change my personality and behavior in ways that made me sicker. Withdrawal was hell. The shame was hell. The loss of dignity was hell. The whole thing was hell.
Sobriety is life.
I lost my day 1 thread - but that's okay. I don't feel like digging it up
I go to AA pretty much every day.
I have to say that I greatly enjoy it. I am not religious and I have never really believed in a god - but this time, that's not keeping me from going back. It gives me a place to go during my old "witching hour." And that's huge. And I am spiritual - when I stopped going to AA because of the "God stuff" previously, I was just using that as an excuse. In reality, my AV was taking over and I just wanted to keep drinking. And I did.
My sobriety is the most important thing in my life.
Drinking never solves anything and almost always makes things worse.
One day at a time.
If you're newer than me, please don't give up on sobriety. Live to fight another day.
If you're further along than me, please let me be a lesson for your sobriety. It's fresh in my mind - drinking sucks. There's nothing to romanticize. All it ever did was make me sick and change my personality and behavior in ways that made me sicker. Withdrawal was hell. The shame was hell. The loss of dignity was hell. The whole thing was hell.
Sobriety is life.
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Originally Posted by ThatWasTheOldMe 
I'm just checking in.
I lost my day 1 thread - but that's okay. I don't feel like digging it up
I go to AA pretty much every day.
I have to say that I greatly enjoy it. I am not religious and I have never really believed in a god - but this time, that's not keeping me from going back. It gives me a place to go during my old "witching hour." And that's huge. And I am spiritual - when I stopped going to AA because of the "God stuff" previously, I was just using that as an excuse. In reality, my AV was taking over and I just wanted to keep drinking. And I did.
My sobriety is the most important thing in my life.
Drinking never solves anything and almost always makes things worse.
One day at a time.
If you're newer than me, please don't give up on sobriety. Live to fight another day.
If you're further along than me, please let me be a lesson for your sobriety. It's fresh in my mind - drinking sucks. There's nothing to romanticize. All it ever did was make me sick and change my personality and behavior in ways that made me sicker. Withdrawal was hell. The shame was hell. The loss of dignity was hell. The whole thing was hell.
Sobriety is life.
I lost my day 1 thread - but that's okay. I don't feel like digging it up
I go to AA pretty much every day.
I have to say that I greatly enjoy it. I am not religious and I have never really believed in a god - but this time, that's not keeping me from going back. It gives me a place to go during my old "witching hour." And that's huge. And I am spiritual - when I stopped going to AA because of the "God stuff" previously, I was just using that as an excuse. In reality, my AV was taking over and I just wanted to keep drinking. And I did.
My sobriety is the most important thing in my life.
Drinking never solves anything and almost always makes things worse.
One day at a time.
If you're newer than me, please don't give up on sobriety. Live to fight another day.
If you're further along than me, please let me be a lesson for your sobriety. It's fresh in my mind - drinking sucks. There's nothing to romanticize. All it ever did was make me sick and change my personality and behavior in ways that made me sicker. Withdrawal was hell. The shame was hell. The loss of dignity was hell. The whole thing was hell.
Sobriety is life.
My sobriety is the most important thing in my life.
Drinking never solves anything and almost always makes things worse.
One day at a time.
Thank you for your post!!! This is very inspiring to me. I read online last night that Fear is the absence of acceptance- and -love
(you accept and love your sobriety)
Drinking- will bring me nothing but fear. I will not be accepting my sobriety nor will I be able to love myself. Drinking makes me abhor my higher self, loss of dignity etc...
congrats on 41 days. I will receive my 60 day chip on Christmas Eve.
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Congratulations! I don't want to steal your limelight, but I'm also at 41 days. Like you I had terrible withdrawal which I attributed to kindling. On several occasions I had terrible panic attacks where I actually thought I was dying. This has helped me to stay sober, but I will be attending AA meetings shortly, too. Best of luck.
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