self imposed ban, for now.
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self imposed ban, for now.
I fully understand the irony of stating I have put myself on a self imposed ban from SR. And am now posting.
I need to become a little selfish and focus on myself for a bit and get things straightened out. I lashed out VERY seriously.
I want to apologize to those I offended. I am not proud of myself, and actually over the weekend felt some shame. It was horrible.
I will be back in due time as this too shall pass. Jeff.
I need to become a little selfish and focus on myself for a bit and get things straightened out. I lashed out VERY seriously.
I want to apologize to those I offended. I am not proud of myself, and actually over the weekend felt some shame. It was horrible.
I will be back in due time as this too shall pass. Jeff.
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Originally Posted by thomas11 
I need to become a little selfish and focus on myself for a bit and get things straightened out. I lashed out VERY seriously.
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That smacks of punishment to me Jeff and you don't need more punishment - quite the opposite.
You drank - thats all the more reason NOT to ban yourself but to participate more in this community.
stop beating yourself up and start wailing on your addiction and whatever else has you down on yourself.
You drank - thats all the more reason NOT to ban yourself but to participate more in this community.
stop beating yourself up and start wailing on your addiction and whatever else has you down on yourself.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
That smacks of punishment to me Jeff and you don't need more punishment - quite the opposite.
You drank - thats all the more reason NOT to ban yourself but to participate more in this community.
stop beating yourself up and start wailing on your addiction and whatever else has you down on yourself.
You drank - thats all the more reason NOT to ban yourself but to participate more in this community.
stop beating yourself up and start wailing on your addiction and whatever else has you down on yourself.
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don't ban yourself, it's important for all of us to be here I believe. I might not post as much as I used to but I'm here everyday. dealing with some family stuff myself atm I can relate to the frustrations they can cause.
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Stay with us, I think its the best thing you can do. I would worry if you stayed away that you might end up back down the rabbit hole and we all know that's a terrible place to be..
You got drunk, you got angry, not really with us, you've apologised, so be here and stay close so that you make sure it doesn't happen again..this is where you belong..
Nic
You got drunk, you got angry, not really with us, you've apologised, so be here and stay close so that you make sure it doesn't happen again..this is where you belong..
Nic
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Hello-
You sound very intelligent and educated in your posts. I am sorry you are going through a tough time. I only have today (24hrs) that matters alcohol free.
I am very excited though that there is a brand new decade around the corner
that one day at a time I can be sober for! Glad you are taking care of yourself.
You sound very intelligent and educated in your posts. I am sorry you are going through a tough time. I only have today (24hrs) that matters alcohol free.
I am very excited though that there is a brand new decade around the corner
that one day at a time I can be sober for! Glad you are taking care of yourself.
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One of my sad consequences of my drinking is that I drunk dialed and drunk texted people. To protect myself and others from this consequence, I would delete phone numbers from my phone when I was still drinking. If you still feel vulnerable to drinking, I can understand why you may want to protect yourself by temporarily banning yourself from this site until you have, say, 30 days. But that also means you may have to reach out in other ways to get help in the meantime, such as AA, outpatient or inpatient rehab. You are in my prayers.
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After my last relapse ended I was in pure shame and avoided SR for about 4 months until I felt stable in my sobriety. At that point I had only managed to put three two month stretches together so I can kind of get it.
But Jeff, in your case I think you've been here too long for that!
But Jeff, in your case I think you've been here too long for that!
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If anyone can understand it's us lot. I used to post here drunk out of the sheer loneliness that drunkenness had taken me (and - knowing drunk me - would do again were I to take a drink). Unfortunately it's par for the course in relapse land. Or maybe fortunately; I mean, it's another thing that keeps me accountable. Facebook used to be a big problem for me too. And boy how I don't miss those next day reveals!
Stick around bud.
Stick around bud.
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Hey Jeff,
Many of us have been actually WAITING for you to return so that we can help support you. The inevitable after-drinking guilt is tough. Minutes seem like hours when I feel that way. Glad you posted here today.
Many of us have been actually WAITING for you to return so that we can help support you. The inevitable after-drinking guilt is tough. Minutes seem like hours when I feel that way. Glad you posted here today.
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Stay on here Thomas11. The exchange from a few days ago was really not that big of a deal. You were clearly in pain and all of us definitely get it. Stay on here and keep helping us. I'm new to sobriety and appreciate honest posts like yours - good, bad, unicorns and ugly. That is what life throws at us and it is good for us to talk about all of it.
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