2 weeks sober
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2 weeks sober
After 5 weeks af during aug/SEP I thought I could treat myself to a few quiet beverages and then jump back on the wagon.
7 weeks later I pulled my **** back together from deep down that hole again. I fell faster than I thought possible and was right back where I left off. Waking up asking the wife what I did wrong, why I was cranky, where is my wallet etc....
Id black out and my mental anguish would become her fault. It never was.
My body screaming at me for some care after major neglect. Anxiety and depression coming back with a vengeance. Beer on the way to work so I could function till my first break. All day drinking at every opportunity untill bed
rinse and repeat.
The drink owned me again and I just sat in the passenger seat. It didn't even help with the cravings. I was craving at the same time as I was drinking. An unsatisfiable thirst.
That is not who or what I am going to be anymore. I want more from this life. I won't be missing out on anything from not drinking rather I'll be gaining more. I'll be in control. I will be me for all my waking hours.
I'm here for the long haul SR. Thanks for having me.
7 weeks later I pulled my **** back together from deep down that hole again. I fell faster than I thought possible and was right back where I left off. Waking up asking the wife what I did wrong, why I was cranky, where is my wallet etc....
Id black out and my mental anguish would become her fault. It never was.
My body screaming at me for some care after major neglect. Anxiety and depression coming back with a vengeance. Beer on the way to work so I could function till my first break. All day drinking at every opportunity untill bed
rinse and repeat.
The drink owned me again and I just sat in the passenger seat. It didn't even help with the cravings. I was craving at the same time as I was drinking. An unsatisfiable thirst.
That is not who or what I am going to be anymore. I want more from this life. I won't be missing out on anything from not drinking rather I'll be gaining more. I'll be in control. I will be me for all my waking hours.
I'm here for the long haul SR. Thanks for having me.
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Great job!
I rinsed and repeated for many years, and we do fall deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole each time. I had to let go of the idea that I could ever have control over booze. As it's been said around here many times....if you could control it, you would've done it already.
Those of us who are alcoholics will only find freedom through abstinence.
Things seem to fall into place, once that realization is made.
I rinsed and repeated for many years, and we do fall deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole each time. I had to let go of the idea that I could ever have control over booze. As it's been said around here many times....if you could control it, you would've done it already.
Those of us who are alcoholics will only find freedom through abstinence.
Things seem to fall into place, once that realization is made.
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