Accountability
 

I hope no one minds if i keep a accountability thread, today is day one and probably the worst day of my life. I can't sleep im aching and shaking and have a shooting pain in my head. Why has this happened to me I should of been stronger. I am devastated and scared

Tinker, I assure you I've done the same thing to myself - as many of us have. You're back now, and ready to reclaim your life. You will get free again and begin to heal. These miserable feelings will go away & become a faded memory as you lead a new & better life.

It's going to be ok.

Thank you for your kind words

Tinker, we do this to ourselves because we're addicts. You're here and you're seeking support, and that is showing your strength. The first few days are definitely tough, between feeling physically unwell and the mental torture that we bring to ourselves. But, it will get better. We can do hard things. :)

Hi Tinkerbeau. I think an accountability thread is a great idea. It’s nice to have a space to check in, get feedback or vent if necessary. I’m sorry you’re feeling the withdrawal symptoms of the first day or few but hey! You’re feeling your last first day. Hang in there. It gets easier.

Love and support to you TinkerB. I hope things start to get a bit easier for you 💕💕

In addition to Sober Recovery, I would encourage you to seek accountability in the form of face-to-face support, be it a substance abuse program, AA, rehab, counseling, therapy. Something in addition to just posting here. Something that's going to help you cope with life without alcohol.

Glad you came here for support. No worries fam. Lets get you back on track my friend. Hydrate eat broth crackers light stuff. Rest. Cause guess what you got work to do. ✌

Thank you for all you kind words. I do go to counselling and i will look into aa as i do need some extra help, and I've not been managing on my own

F2F was crucial for my recovery. Well that and being completely honest with those who I met with F2F.

Welcome back Tink! It’s great to see you posting. I think an accountability thread is a great idea.

Hi Tinker,
You are not alone. Glad you have reached out for help. Please post often and do not ever give up on yourself. It sounds like you have acknowledged a problem and there is a solution in recovery. I am currently attending AA meetings and their is a wealth of support and inspiration that is just awesome. I receive the motivation and hope that I am able to stay sober for 24hours one day at a time.

Don't beat yourself up for not being stronger. Withdrawals simply suck. It will get better.

Hi everyone its morning of day 2 and I still feel dreadful, the night was so bad again i had very little sleep and want i did get was scary almost hallucinations and keep hearing things that weren't there. I hate myself for what I've done

I’m on day two and felt a little better by the afternoon. I too slept dreadfully and have been up all day filled with anxiety. I’m going for a rest now even though it’s teatime. Best of luck to and don’t give up.

Thanks sweeti hope you feel better soon too

Tink maybe see a GP....to be safe. Well done on starting the thread.

Thanks Phoenix i feel bit better now and more calmer. Got to go into work tomorrow with after my bosses seeing me in state i was will be horrendous im just praying i dont get sacked and have opportunity to put all this right. But one thing i know for sure is i will be going to sleep sober

Day 3 today still didn't sleep well odd dreams and sensations and sweats, vile that we would do this to ourselves. Got myself ready for work though and off to face the music and shame