Back to basics
Back to basics
I have been having a bit of a battle lately. The regime I worked out and stuck to for the first six months of recovery was just not yielding the results any more. I am restless and irritable with a pervasive feeling of futility.
I have tried doing more, doing less, doing things differently, practising gratitude, eating well, staying home, going out. Basically every permutation I could think of. Nothing really worked.
I considered my situation and have decided to go back to basics. One day at a time. I am not going to overthink this and I am not going to search for the ultimate solution. I will let life happen and stay sober one day at a time, even one minute at a time if needs be.
Sometimes one must just go with the flow and stop fighting. This simplifies my mission to one thing only: sobriety. Recovery can come later.
I have tried doing more, doing less, doing things differently, practising gratitude, eating well, staying home, going out. Basically every permutation I could think of. Nothing really worked.
I considered my situation and have decided to go back to basics. One day at a time. I am not going to overthink this and I am not going to search for the ultimate solution. I will let life happen and stay sober one day at a time, even one minute at a time if needs be.
Sometimes one must just go with the flow and stop fighting. This simplifies my mission to one thing only: sobriety. Recovery can come later.
Yep, sometimes we have to break life down to it's simplest denominator; living.
One day at a time one minute at a time.
I've been sober going on eleven years and I still take it one day at a time. To me, that is recovery. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks about it it's the way I choose to live.
Works for me. I wish the same thing for you.
One day at a time one minute at a time.
I've been sober going on eleven years and I still take it one day at a time. To me, that is recovery. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks about it it's the way I choose to live.
Works for me. I wish the same thing for you.
That sounds like a great plan to me. What you’re taking about sounds a lot like remaining focused on living in the present moment, and making the next positive choice for you. Mindfulness may be something you want to look into. There are some great apps, and videos online.
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I think the same thing goes for anything, really- diets, exercise programs, hobbies, etc., at least for me anyway (that is the ones that I actually start since my issue tends to be getting over the hump to execute the plan), you get into a comfortable zone and bored. Or it’s too ambitious and overbearing and not sustainable.
Congrats on recognizing that youve changed over the past 6mos (we all do), and what may have worked well before isn’t doing it now. And recognizing it before it’s too late, and not losing sight of the ultimate goal. Looking forward to reading your next posts, since I’m still at the beginning of sobriety, it is good for me to regularly check in on my own plan.
Congrats on recognizing that youve changed over the past 6mos (we all do), and what may have worked well before isn’t doing it now. And recognizing it before it’s too late, and not losing sight of the ultimate goal. Looking forward to reading your next posts, since I’m still at the beginning of sobriety, it is good for me to regularly check in on my own plan.
Epictetus, I do socialise but can’t say I enjoy it much. It takes effort now to tolerate and do small-talk when with booze as you know that is easy. I gym daily, I play golf and bridge once a week, I read a lot. I don’t actually know what I expect to happen. Objectively I live a good life. I am grateful for that. Subjectively I feel edgy, incomplete.
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Epictetus, I do socialise but can’t say I enjoy it much. It takes effort now to tolerate and do small-talk when with booze as you know that is easy. I gym daily, I play golf and bridge once a week, I read a lot. I don’t actually know what I expect to happen. Objectively I live a good life. I am grateful for that. Subjectively I feel edgy, incomplete.
Could you turn that into some sort of social challenge to overcome? Is there are Toastmasters for example near where you live? You'll meet like minded people who wish to develop their social and communication skills (speaking in public) all with no help from a social lubricant.
Do you feel like you are going through the motions with your routine? Golf and bridge wouldn't be my cup of tea! But are you passionate about them? is there anything that you feel passionate about that you feel you could talk about for hours or that simply gets you excited?
Do you read "self-help" or novels as a matter of interest? sometimes the head can be too much in "self help" or "recovery" and the very notion of "self help" can sometimes leave the impression that we are "not enough".........
A good novel on the other hand! Reflects the realities of life more in my opinion and is a great escape!
Epictetus, I do socialise but can’t say I enjoy it much. It takes effort now to tolerate and do small-talk when with booze as you know that is easy. I gym daily, I play golf and bridge once a week, I read a lot. I don’t actually know what I expect to happen. Objectively I live a good life. I am grateful for that. Subjectively I feel edgy, incomplete.
You hear a lot of terms like joyous and free thrown around in the forum, so it would be easy to think that sobriety solves everything. But it's not like that. Life is still there. I think your discontent is more likely to be something unrelated to drinking.
Sobriety doesn't solve everything. You still have to do things besides not drink, which I realize you are, and your recovery seems on track, but something else over "there" just out of sight needs adjustment. Maybe it's your perception. Maybe it's something you are not aware of. Don't be too quick to think you are failing at recovery. There's more to life than recovery. Drinking is just one thing that can make you unhappy.
It may be time to take a good look inside. In my late 20s, counseling helped me a lot. Oddly, it was at a time when my drinking was starting to run away and later get out of control. I solved a bunch of personal problems, but not my drinking, which wasn't bothering me at the time, so I didn't even bring it up. It was almost like drinking was the last big issue I had to solve, but it didn't happen for another 30 years.
OK, but the point is how you are feeling right now is probably not related to the issue of alcohol. You've got that under control. I think it's probably something else.
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