dealing with the wreckage
 

10 days sober feeling better but am totally overwhelmed.
Meeting at 1pm which is good.
No physical license..lost card.
lost SS card.
no job-
rent due
No DR (does not accept my prescription) I need another antibiotic
my infection came back
clothes in boxes all over need to find room an put away.
need to dig in and start getting some of these dealt with.
All I want to do is hide in meetings all day. praying someone threw my license in the mail. My actions have just caused havoc

Wow carnage. One thing at a time. Lay off the sauce and everything else will be tolerable . ✌

It's really hard to deal with the messes we've made while drinking. What helped me was to make a list of things to do and promise myself to cross at least one or two things off the list each day. Just allow some time each day to begin to manage those things and it will seem better.

I've been in your position many times. That life is almost normal to me.

1. Go to ER and get your infection under control.

2. Raise your hand in the meeting and say you need help and want someone who knows the steps to guide you.

3. Follow their lead.

Simply and easy. That's it.

Thank you so much for the responses.
In retrospect this post I wrote is self serving, pity me and just plain ungrateful.
I am lucky I did not kill anybody , no legal trouble, still have my life
and I am sober today- I am detoxed and have 24 hours sober day 10 and that is a miracle.
I should be thanking my lucky stars and not be complaining

I am going to take the above suggestions.
Truth I was drinking on antibiotics. My fault infection still here.
I got my new insurance card (I switched) so can see my DR.
Truth is I can get a duplicate license . I do this every six weeks like clockwork.
When drinking I lose everything of value on my person. I have had more phones than I can count. At least 3 a year for the last seven years *sad*
I can go to the SS office the next town over so they will print a card for free
(boo hoo big deal) put on your big girl pants.
I can get a *get well* job- since that is all I can maintain anyhow (hopefully)
I have the last of my funds to pay this months rent.
I can set up a payment plan for December then my lease is complete



I am not working and I can take my time and get organized move the
rest of my things into my own room at my parents and clean/scrub the old place. Its called taking responsibility moving on and *life*

Maybe I am going backwards. I need to go backwards. I can not be isolated
and living in a place I can not afford. I need to do this for myself and work on my
recovery /sobriety.
Bottom line I can not exist drunk any longer. The pain has finally broke my denial.
I want to be sober more than I want to drink
thank you again! Anna I am going to start checking off this list.

Faith, I don't think you're going backwards at all. Moving from a place you can't afford to live with your family for awhile is not moving backwards. It's part of your plan to move forwards and have a manageable life. Be kind to yourself today, Faith. :)

Thank you Anna
you are correct. I need the support. This summer was hell drinking.
I was a walking corpse
I got my new insurance card in the mail today! That was a gift so I can go to the DR's.

no such luck on the license LOL going to have to pay for a dupe
oh well - I would of easily spent $ on two glasses of wine NO questions/regrets whatsoever

Welcome Faith. Your second post was really good. Having a recovery plan (info in sticky's for newcomer's forums) is good. Keep up with the meetings. Support to you.

Thank you! Phoenix for the warm welcome

Adelaide sounds beautiful saw a few documentaries on Youtube about it.