Struggling
 

Welcome and I'm glad you found us. Take a look around here and you will see people using different methods to achieve sobriety and recovery. The main thing is your motivation and to find what works for you. :)

You are where I was a couple of months ago.

Actually I was worse.

I went to my doctor, put life on "hold" and took care of ME for awhile.

If I got through that nightmare, you can get through by taking the right actions and allowing yourself to heal.

My doctor gave me anti depressants and Im better every day.

I have NO desire to drink or even look at alcohol.

You just need to find what works for you. You can be free of that junk. Its nothing but misery.

You can do this Misspolly. The shivers / chills are rough but they only last a day or so. I had them bad. Of course, if you feel like you need it, seek medical help for your withdrawals.

Once you get through withdrawal, come up with a plan to keep yourself sober. Then just work that plan, hit your marks, keep moving forward and count your sober days.

Keep trying AA, give it another chance, even it means just giving yourself to do to keep your mind occupied for the first few days. You don't have to make it a lifestyle long term. Use it as a crutch until you feel better.

SC

I agree with everyone else: you can do this MissPolly. I signed on to SR four months ago and I haven't had a drink since that day. And I was a daily drinker, minimum of a bottle of wine a night. Stick with us. SC is right that you need a plan but it needn't be too complicated. Mine is not much more than making sure I to do a specific amount of exercise at certain times each day and that I sign on here and post each and every day. I am not young. You don't have to wait until you are as old as I am to do this. You can have many more alcoholic free days than are now available to me! Lots of luck and hope to see you posting again soon.

welcome aboard misspolly :)

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If you go through my past threads you'll see that I was binging and purging with alcohol, facing a bogus shoplifting charge over some toilet paper that ended up costing me a thousand dollars and a ton of misery, and had taken 60 Klonopin in a four day period to "try to even myself out".

People here told me to go to the hospital, but I was done. Just done. With alcohol, misery, life...

I came off everything by myself, went to my doctor and got checked and stabilized on antidepressants.

My life may not be "fun" or back to 100%, but Im a million times better.

This is after many fits and starts.

Once I finally got it through my head that there was NO relief in even ONE, it lost its appeal.

You will never win so dont get into a fight with the bottle.

People here have tried many times and many ways.

Just dont beat yourself up. Thats what your brain wants right now- so it can convince you that you need another drink.

Rewire and retrain that brain.

The compulsion WILL go away. I had it BAD.

Some days I dont feel great, but I dont even imagine drinking will make it better.

Just dust yourself off and shower, eat, exercise, rest.

This place is a great resource. I'm glad you're here.

Welcome Misspolly … check out the many forums/threads here at SR. You will be supported in your recovery efforts. Staying sober for a short while will help with the out of control emotions and physical unpleasantness associated with withdrawals.

It does get better. I applaud your effort ...big step ...:c011:

Miss Polly,
Come over and join us in the October 2019 class group. We’d love to have you with us. Most of us are new to sobriety and it s a good “home base”.

I've found that sobriety is action. Once you detox your way, start a journal. It can help immensely!

Hows your taper going?

D