I dont think I can go on
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Well done whitejay. Keep eating small meals and perhaps try a shower later today then back to bed.
Clean sheets, if you have them, were a joy to me in early sobriety.
You are on your way to peace and joy—rest, stay hydrated, and keep posting
Clean sheets, if you have them, were a joy to me in early sobriety.
You are on your way to peace and joy—rest, stay hydrated, and keep posting
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Originally Posted by whitejay 
I cant wait for the day I am well enough to help others.
Thank you for posting!
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Whitejay now you listen up and good. Dear Heart so many of us have been in the spot you are in right this second.. truly. I have been there too. and in the last 6 months have just been so lost. and not because I am drinking or Eddie Lee is taking drugs.. but because life is so short and his heart will scream just once more and then he will be gone..
do I want to drink Oh double toothpicks yes.. why because I have to prep for when his body no longer has the breath and I will have to do the costs and find the right answers and hold the world steady for his Mom and Sister and for others that will need a bottom line to his life..
White Jay the next time you think even for a second of your life you can't do it. go to you tube and pull up Open Heart surgery and look and listen for a little and say oh my God the Lady Clown is balancing What the toothpicks What.. and then look in the mirror and say this man in the mirror will do better for her. please. God Help me and stop just stop and find something Great that is right there and Dear Heart Make you Life the Best for this old lady Clown..
do I want to drink Oh double toothpicks yes.. why because I have to prep for when his body no longer has the breath and I will have to do the costs and find the right answers and hold the world steady for his Mom and Sister and for others that will need a bottom line to his life..
White Jay the next time you think even for a second of your life you can't do it. go to you tube and pull up Open Heart surgery and look and listen for a little and say oh my God the Lady Clown is balancing What the toothpicks What.. and then look in the mirror and say this man in the mirror will do better for her. please. God Help me and stop just stop and find something Great that is right there and Dear Heart Make you Life the Best for this old lady Clown..
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Originally Posted by whitejay
I am crying reading all your wonderful messages to me.
All of it is helping me so much and I appreciate all of you - your kind
words, your wisdom, and helping me realize that I can beat this.
This is going to be a tough road ahead, but I dont want to die.
Even though I have no friends to talk to, I have found my home with you.
All of it is helping me so much and I appreciate all of you - your kind
words, your wisdom, and helping me realize that I can beat this.
This is going to be a tough road ahead, but I dont want to die.
Even though I have no friends to talk to, I have found my home with you.
I don't know why, but all your posts are making me cry. You touched my heart. I am OK only 2 weeks sober but I have HF health issues and also haven't been feeling good lately. Just feeling sick, like there's something else wrong with me. Just don't feel right. I have an anxiety disorder so that don't help matters either.
I had the same thoughts you are having when I was drinking and wanting to stop but I didn't know how, didn't know how to function without alcohol.I was in a very dark place. Even tho I'm feeling sick right now and don't know if something else is wrong with me, I'm still glad I haven't picked up a drink.
If we can do it, you can do it! One day at a time. I'm crying now, but I'm sober. We will make it through this. Just gotta be strong!
God grant US the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things we can and the wisdom to know the difference.
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Whitejay, this month 8 years no cocaine, in July it was 9 years no booze. You'll do it too. We all suffered. Sober Recovery is a really go place to hang so stay with us, we are all rootin for ya. 
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Originally Posted by neferkamichael
Whitejay, this month 8 years no cocaine, in July it was 9 years no booze. You'll do it too. We all suffered. Sober Recovery is a really go place to hang so stay with us, we are all rootin for ya.
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Hello my friends 
Day 4 - what a complete difference I feel today.
No depression, no anxiety, feeling strong and focused.
Ate, showered, and on my way to chiropractor. I would of never left the house before, nor cared enough about myself to actually see a chiro.
You guys CHANGED ALL THAT ! So much appreciation.
Day 4 - what a complete difference I feel today.
No depression, no anxiety, feeling strong and focused.
Ate, showered, and on my way to chiropractor. I would of never left the house before, nor cared enough about myself to actually see a chiro.
You guys CHANGED ALL THAT ! So much appreciation.
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Originally Posted by Angeleyes1111
Whitejay ....
I don't know why, but all your posts are making me cry. You touched my heart. I am OK only 2 weeks sober but I have HF health issues and also haven't been feeling good lately. Just feeling sick, like there's something else wrong with me. Just don't feel right. I have an anxiety disorder so that don't help matters either.
I had the same thoughts you are having when I was drinking and wanting to stop but I didn't know how, didn't know how to function without alcohol.I was in a very dark place. Even tho I'm feeling sick right now and don't know if something else is wrong with me, I'm still glad I haven't picked up a drink.
If we can do it, you can do it! One day at a time. I'm crying now, but I'm sober. We will make it through this. Just gotta be strong!
God grant US the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things we can and the wisdom to know the difference.
I don't know why, but all your posts are making me cry. You touched my heart. I am OK only 2 weeks sober but I have HF health issues and also haven't been feeling good lately. Just feeling sick, like there's something else wrong with me. Just don't feel right. I have an anxiety disorder so that don't help matters either.
I had the same thoughts you are having when I was drinking and wanting to stop but I didn't know how, didn't know how to function without alcohol.I was in a very dark place. Even tho I'm feeling sick right now and don't know if something else is wrong with me, I'm still glad I haven't picked up a drink.
If we can do it, you can do it! One day at a time. I'm crying now, but I'm sober. We will make it through this. Just gotta be strong!
God grant US the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things we can and the wisdom to know the difference.
please dont be sad - I know drinking gave me medical issues but I am determined to heal my mind my body.
Will you do it with me?
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Originally Posted by whitejay
You guys CHANGED ALL THAT ! So much appreciation.
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Originally Posted by flg1412
Awesome going Jay
We made it to Day 3 with another day in sight. I'm going to write down what I am grateful for a bit later, so there is something to look back on, even in these early days.
We made it to Day 3 with another day in sight. I'm going to write down what I am grateful for a bit later, so there is something to look back on, even in these early days.
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