August252015

This!
John, glad you are here.

Doctors appointments, esp re mental health, up soon? I need ongoing care in some ways (now my psych is an every 3 mo med check, but at first it was untangling alcohol and mental health issues and every 2 wks) and am very grateful I sought and found a team of drs for everything from GP to back surgery!!

Class of Oct 2019 would be a good place to connect with folks getting sober now.

John65

Thanks August. I have an excellent doctor and psych issues are now being addressed as best they can be.

I'm already in the October 2019 class too, I found my old May 2018 class very helpful. I should pop by there and say hello.

bassplayer315

I did the same thing after 6 years. I took a little vacation over 4th of July holiday and picked up. Thought I could give moderation a try but after a couple of months I was back where I left off. I have a week today. Welcome back.

August252015

Awesome, John. very glad you made it back - I took way too many chances with my life to get to my DONE point.

John65

Day 3. These first few days are the hardest. I'm being very moody today, at times verging on rage. This is partly due to my mental illness and partly due to having drank huge amounts of alcohol over the past few weeks. This heavy drinking has messed me up considerably and I count myself lucky to be alive.

gypsytears

I think what you’re experiencing is common during the first few days. It was for me anyway. You mentioned having a dr to address your specific concerns though...that’s great. It’s still very early so give yourself permission to feel what you’re feeling. Things do get better the longer we don’t drink.

Anna

John, I'm really glad to see you back. I'm sorry for your injuries, but I love your attitude about recovery.

Bumblebee2

snitch

Welcome back. Glad you made it out alive. Thank you for sharing. As someone else posted, I don't like reading these stories but at the same time they help to keep me sober. After my last drunk that nearly ended me, only last Friday my head tried telling me it would be different if I drank this time. Insanity.

At least now you have your proof that you are alcoholic and cannot drink safely or moderately. A harsh way to learn but a lesson nevertheless.

It took me about 10 days to get over my last binge. It is just something we have to go through to get to the other side.!

Stay close.

Bonniefloyd

John65

Thanks folks

Day 4. Just got up and feeling too sleepy to know exactly how I'm feeling today. I'll see how I feel after I've taken my meds and had a nice hot black coffee.

snitch

How are you doing today?

John65

Thanks for coming over to ask, Snitch!

I'm doing ok thanks, think it's a week today . I've had some thoughts of drinking but I know that I can't. I'm still physically recovering from my last alcohol related injuries.

Hope all's well with you

Dee74

Congrats on your week John - keep ignoring that AV...it's got nothing good for you

snitch

That's great to hear.

The thoughts will come but remember they are just thoughts. It's what we do with them that matters. When I get them now I tell them to eff off and take it up with my HP!! I al an alcoholic and to drink is to die. Period.

Stay close John.

John65

Thanks Dee, thanks snitch, thanks folks.

Day zero, again...

Dee74

Im sorry to hear that John.

I'm interested to know - what do you think is your downfall - your recovery plan, or putting that plan into practice?

D

John65

Day one.

I don't have a recovery plan, have never had one.

I'm going to call my social worker to arrange an assessment. I need to make a lot of changes in my life but need outside help.

ColoradoRocky

You do. I do. We all do.

Why not hang out with some people who know how to stay away from alcohol and make some new friends, unpaid friends who can help you (and whom you can help)?

Dee74

I hope you'll look at this John

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)