I’m screwed I can’t do
not a greeter
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: padmasana
Posts: 13,927
I’m very sorry for your pain Mummy. I lost my mother almost 23 years ago and it still throws me. Every year around this time I relive her last days as if it just happened. The anniversary of her passing is coming up in December and I know every year I’ll be sad/depressed as much as I try not to. This time of year and especially the day of, has certainly been a “cause” for relapse in the past. It’s a certain trigger for sure. All I can do is recognize it, be vigilant, ask for support, go to a few masses (I’m a lazy Catholic) and maybe hit a few AA meetings and honor her life by not drinking.
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 8,674
I'm very sorry for your loss.
You're still avoiding our question about whether you are drinking, in withdrawal - or about to throw in the towel again and drink. Gotta start there, whether you tell us or not.
You're still avoiding our question about whether you are drinking, in withdrawal - or about to throw in the towel again and drink. Gotta start there, whether you tell us or not.
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 8,674
Originally Posted by newhope01 
It’s okay if you slipped you just just got to get back up. How can we help you? No judgment. We’ve all been there.
Hope your safe.
Hope your safe.
Mummy, I think you know deep down that you MUST get off this relapse roller coaster. I say relapse here because it's a consistent cycle for you.
Semantics or word choices aside- you get to choose.
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Join Date: Sep 2019
Posts: 223
Mummy your kids are worth everything. I had 2 kids by myself under the age of 7. One day I fell asleep and didn't pick them up. I awoke to the preschool teacher beating on my door. We only lived two houses from the school. After that children services got involved. I lost them as soon as I filed for divorce. Your story reads similar to mine. Please keep trying. 8 know you are having a hard struggle, I couldn't take them to AA. They were too disruptive.All I can sày is don't drink.think 9f how you would feel if you lost them,
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Join Date: Mar 2015
Location: St.Petersburg, FL.
Posts: 1,077
I'm very sorry for your loss, Mummy. I know your little brother would want you to be happy and healthy and alcohol-free. I am praying for you and I hope that you let us know how you are doing today--I know you understand there is nothing that alcohol will make better, and everything that poison will make infinitely worse. It's misery, how I get it--but you can change your life. I never thought I could stop, and that I'd always be trapped in a hellish spiral leading to my death. I was as wrong as I could've been. Wishing you all good things, my dear. Think of your beautiful children. They need their mum.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Arizona, USA
Posts: 1,598
Hey Mummers, get your tush back in here! Put down that bottle. We’re eagerly awaiting your return. I just relapsed for three days after 65. It SUCKED! But I’m back at it. Now YOU put down that dumb bottle and get your nose back into this. Xoxo
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