What I’ve become after booze - Weekenders 06 - 09 September 2019
Member
Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: UK
Posts: 1,327
Struggling again this weekend. The doc upped my anti-d's this week but obvs that will take a while to kick in. Getting so low and close to saying f it. Maybe it's not so good the booze-soaked memories are further back in my mind after all. I think I'm getting that ol' euphoric recall.
Tired enough to just be going to bed now though. Sober head on the pillow. That's the main thing, right?
Tired enough to just be going to bed now though. Sober head on the pillow. That's the main thing, right?
Member
Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Arizona, USA
Posts: 1,598
I’m in. I’m not sure how much I’ve changed per se. I’m still quite a work in progress. I’m a helluva lot more accountable these days though. A little more patient, less reactive. Healthier. More calm. ok, I guess I have changed a bit, lol.
Member
Join Date: Oct 2018
Posts: 591
Tetrax, yes.... definitely getting my head on my pillow sober every night is probably the best part of my day. Rest well. I’m considering anti depressants or something to at least help me sleep and stop overthinking.
I’m so exhausted. Stressful month, seems doing my job makes some people start to hate me. Still I have no strong urge to drink about it. It’s easier to deal with this without the additional drama and regrets of drinking.
I did a nice workout and now Netflix n dinner. Then getting my head on my pillow sober.
I’m so exhausted. Stressful month, seems doing my job makes some people start to hate me. Still I have no strong urge to drink about it. It’s easier to deal with this without the additional drama and regrets of drinking.
I did a nice workout and now Netflix n dinner. Then getting my head on my pillow sober.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2019
Posts: 164
Originally Posted by Tetrax 
Struggling again this weekend. The doc upped my anti-d's this week but obvs that will take a while to kick in. Getting so low and close to saying f it. Maybe it's not so good the booze-soaked memories are further back in my mind after all. I think I'm getting that ol' euphoric recall.
Tired enough to just be going to bed now though. Sober head on the pillow. That's the main thing, right?
Tired enough to just be going to bed now though. Sober head on the pillow. That's the main thing, right?
Have a good sleep Tetrax. Tomorrow morning is a new day.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2019
Posts: 164
Originally Posted by mariposa
Tetrax, yes.... definitely getting my head on my pillow sober every night is probably the best part of my day. Rest well. I’m considering anti depressants or something to at least help me sleep and stop overthinking.
I’m so exhausted. Stressful month, seems doing my job makes some people start to hate me. Still I have no strong urge to drink about it. It’s easier to deal with this without the additional drama and regrets of drinking.
I did a nice workout and now Netflix n dinner. Then getting my head on my pillow sober.
I’m so exhausted. Stressful month, seems doing my job makes some people start to hate me. Still I have no strong urge to drink about it. It’s easier to deal with this without the additional drama and regrets of drinking.
I did a nice workout and now Netflix n dinner. Then getting my head on my pillow sober.
Sounds like you have a plan for the night, sounds relaxing. good for you.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2017
Posts: 850
Hey Tetrax, you really put a lot of work in to get this far, and it wouldn’t be worth it to throw it in the trash and feel like garbage over a perceived “good” feeling.
The meds will do their part if you keep doing yours. Moods fluctuate just like anything else. You’ll be okay. You got this.
night all. Tomorrow is my mud run!!! Can’t believe I’m actually going in the mud....lol. Will check in after it’s over.
The meds will do their part if you keep doing yours. Moods fluctuate just like anything else. You’ll be okay. You got this.
night all. Tomorrow is my mud run!!! Can’t believe I’m actually going in the mud....lol. Will check in after it’s over.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2014
Posts: 25,373
I'm okay sao, I've been reading the 125 page thread on a scuba forum about the California scuba diving boat that burned in the Channel Islands on Monday night, killing 35 of the 39 souls on board.
So tragic. So many ways to die scuba diving...Usually it's the dive we worry about.
G'night weekenders.
So tragic. So many ways to die scuba diving...Usually it's the dive we worry about.
G'night weekenders.
Magsie
Thread Starter
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 26,673
Tetrax, not so good to say f**it. Play the tape forward. I hope you got some sleep.
Bim that’s terrible news about the diving boat. So tragic.
Dpac, enjoy your mud run and if the going gets tough, pretend it’s chocolate...but don’t eat it, lol.
Early Saturday morning here, still dark here, I’m just having my first cuppa coffee.
The start of another sober weekend for us.
Bim that’s terrible news about the diving boat. So tragic.
Dpac, enjoy your mud run and if the going gets tough, pretend it’s chocolate...but don’t eat it, lol.
Early Saturday morning here, still dark here, I’m just having my first cuppa coffee.
The start of another sober weekend for us.
Member
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London, England
Posts: 7,059
Tetrax you have come far too far to chuck it all in. Really you know you don't want that.
Enjoy your muddy messy run dpac.
Well done on your rise to the prestigious crazy golf finals next week Sao.
Rose 3 months is massive when you have been a daily drinker.
Forwards your doing great and sound positive. What type of photography do you do?
Where's Vman and Captain Haddock?? Hope your both ok.
Enjoy your muddy messy run dpac.
Well done on your rise to the prestigious crazy golf finals next week Sao.
Rose 3 months is massive when you have been a daily drinker.
Forwards your doing great and sound positive. What type of photography do you do?
Where's Vman and Captain Haddock?? Hope your both ok.
saoutchik
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London
Posts: 16,202
Morning, i'm glad all is well bim but it was bad news about that boat.
Yes VMan, CaptainHaddock, I hope you are both well.
I second what everyone else has said Tetrax, no one is ever glad that they relapsed and you will feel good if you wake up on Saturday morning without a hangover, it's a bit like Saturday mornings when we were kids with the weekend streching out before us.
Yes VMan, CaptainHaddock, I hope you are both well.
I second what everyone else has said Tetrax, no one is ever glad that they relapsed and you will feel good if you wake up on Saturday morning without a hangover, it's a bit like Saturday mornings when we were kids with the weekend streching out before us.
Member
Join Date: Jun 2019
Posts: 689
Tetrax - just throwing my voice behind everyone else's. You really don't want to say the goodbye to what you've worked so hard to achieve. I think Sao said it well. Saturdays waking up not hungover really are like the (usually childhood) days when we just had the glory of a full weekend stretching ahead of us.
Kaily - you're right, thank you! I was indeed a daily drinker so I'm at least 84 bottles of wine better off now, financially, emotionally and mentally. Embarrassingly high number, given that I've yet to get to three months sobriety and a conservative estimate at that but definitely an achievement.
Dpac, your mud run. Not at all envious you understand but definitely interested to hear about it. Best of luck!.
Kaily - you're right, thank you! I was indeed a daily drinker so I'm at least 84 bottles of wine better off now, financially, emotionally and mentally. Embarrassingly high number, given that I've yet to get to three months sobriety and a conservative estimate at that but definitely an achievement.
Dpac, your mud run. Not at all envious you understand but definitely interested to hear about it. Best of luck!.
Member
Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: UK
Posts: 1,327
Thanks everyone, I slept well, sober. I'm really gonna have to go back to basics and take it one day at a time. Practise mindfulness. Break tasks down into small chunks. I keep overthinking the future, catastrophising...
Well, and so, today I'm not drinking.
Enjoy your mud run dpac
Well, and so, today I'm not drinking.
Enjoy your mud run dpac
Member
Join Date: Mar 2014
Posts: 25,373
I'm glad you made it through that, Tetrax. Nothing at all that a drink can't ruin or make worse.
Catastrophizing. I feel ya...it's hard not to with all the bad news thrown at us every day. I don't even watch the news and still I knew about that boat fire. Now I have one more thing to add to my, "What could happen," playlist.
The older I get the longer that playlist but also the more successes I have behind me. One of my favorites:
I have a 100% success rate at making it through bad days.
Catastrophizing. I feel ya...it's hard not to with all the bad news thrown at us every day. I don't even watch the news and still I knew about that boat fire. Now I have one more thing to add to my, "What could happen," playlist.
The older I get the longer that playlist but also the more successes I have behind me. One of my favorites:
I have a 100% success rate at making it through bad days.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2019
Posts: 164
Originally Posted by dpac414
Hey Tetrax, you really put a lot of work in to get this far, and it wouldn’t be worth it to throw it in the trash and feel like garbage over a perceived “good” feeling.
The meds will do their part if you keep doing yours. Moods fluctuate just like anything else. You’ll be okay. You got this.
night all. Tomorrow is my mud run!!! Can’t believe I’m actually going in the mud....lol. Will check in after it’s over.
The meds will do their part if you keep doing yours. Moods fluctuate just like anything else. You’ll be okay. You got this.
night all. Tomorrow is my mud run!!! Can’t believe I’m actually going in the mud....lol. Will check in after it’s over.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2019
Posts: 164
Originally Posted by STDragon
Saturday morning in a chilly Winnipeg.
It is suppose to warm up, the family and I are heading downtown to a street festival. Food truck wars, rides, vendors and more!
It is suppose to warm up, the family and I are heading downtown to a street festival. Food truck wars, rides, vendors and more!
Your day sounds lovely wish I was there, is the street festival at the Forks?
tkr, Enjoy.
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
