Numblady

I say this not for sympathy though I guess that doesn’t hurt either but today I was at work and I got a call from my sister to tell me they found my brother’s body, dead of a likely overdose. He wad 38. I understand that numbing pain because of the death of someone who died numbing pain is nonsensical but I just don’t know what to do. I had to tell my kids and now we’re just all gobsmacked wandering around until we travel home tomorrow. I am scared to go. So much pain. I feel really lost. I don’t think I’ll drink tonight but I feel a seed taking root so I’m coming here to be honest. And sad.

biminiblue

I'm so sorry, Numblady.

ThatWasTheOldMe

That's terrible. I'm sorry, Numblady.

Dee74

I am very sorry numblady.On my phone so must be brief. Being sad is a natural response to loss. Don’t let your AV hijack this for its own gratification. Your brother would not want that for you and neither do we You will get through this sober

HeadEast

I am so sorry.

Newbeginning421

Sorry for your loss that is really rough

Daisybelle

I'm so sorry to hear this sad news Numblady. Stay strong my lovely friend, you can do this. xx

january161992

Thanks for your fantastic courage, honesty and selflessness by sharing this with the group.

You've helped a lot of people today!

nez

Numblady my heart goes out to you. Would your brother want you to drink or would he want to know the freedom of recovery?

We are given a kaleidoscopic gamut of emotions which help us to stay in touch with our humanity. Our emotions, including grief, are a gift. Embrace your grief and give yourself to the experience. The degree to which we can feel grief is the degree to which we can feel love.

By all means cry over the loss of your brother, but remember to smile because he was. Let the good memories carry you through this difficult time.

babycat

So very, very sorry to hear this Numlady. I lost my brother from an overdose as well and the pain is beyond imaginable. As Dee said, your brother would not want you to drink, he absolutely would not. I know, easier said than done. Just be with your loved ones for the time being. It is all that can really be done. Sending you hugs and all my support. My heart aches for you so much.

Anna

I am very sorry for your loss. Know for sure your brother would want you to stay sober, in spite of this.

Deserto

Oh, Numblady, I am so sorry to hear this. I'm glad you posted, though. Keep posting! Sending prayers and thinking of you.

least

I am so sorry for the loss of your brother. I hope you don't drink tho, cause we both know it won't help anything.

SoberRican

So sorry for your loss my friend. I'm sure your bro would want you to be clear headed. And rightly So. Yo fam need each other right now. Prayers your way ✌

gypsytears

Sending you & your family love and light, prayers for healing, and hugs. So very sorry for the loss of your brother .

fini

one breath at a time if you need to.
so very sorry to hear of this, Numblady.

lessgravity

Sorry for your loss Numb. Staying sober is among the best tributes to your brother you can offer. Hope you decide to do so.

NessunDorma

So sorry for your bereavement and so impressed you are reaching out to reinforce your sobriety. Doing the right thing, all you can do....

wehav2day

Numblady,

I’m SO sorry to hear about your brother.

I understand the impulse to drink this pain away, I really do.Please don’t join him.

My brother (one of us) killed himself last year. I was afraid I’d drink too, but didn’t. I felt the best way to honor him was to do something he wasn’t able to but deep down wanted... to be sober.

I’m really impressed you came here first. That takes a lot of guts and shows you want recovery more than you want quick relief. Which we both know isn’t relief at all. Just a different kind of hell.

Thoughts are with you and your family right now. Please take good care of yourself.

WaterOx

I can only imagine how painful this must feel. I'm so sorry.

I wish I could tell you alcohol would make it better.