Numblady

Thanks everybody. I may post a separate post too but basically I again find myself grateful for SR. From all the things I’ve read here about addiction and in all my quit lit I do really believe that there’s not much else we could have done to change what happened with my brother. Well, sometimes I doubt it but I know from so many stories that if rational consequences were enough, addicts would just quit on the spot. We wanted to help my brother but he wasn’t ready for help, and I hope we can make peace with that on a fundamental level over time. You do always ask yourself if there was something more or better you could have done, even though so much of it is the Russian roulette of opiates at work —rather than anything anyone does or doesn’t do. We could have dragged him to rehab if we’d known more the extent of his issues. But even then if he still wanted to use it could have happened. It’s such a crapshoot when someone takes these drugs, especially intravenously. I still have a hard time believing it happened though.

But I haven’t drunk any booze. While so many around me do shots and get loaded because that’s “normal” I’ve focused in part on something one of the posters said above, being grateful to be free of the bondage, something he surely wanted desperately to be.

My heart hurts and I am so tired but I am still sober.

Dee74

((Numblady))

Rose335

Numblady - I am so glad you didn't drink. I felt you wouldn't but very good to know. Brave and lovely person.

PalmerSage

Mags1

Numblady you’re in my prayers and thoughts