A little about me.... trying this sober thing
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Join Date: Aug 2019
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A little about me.... trying this sober thing
I won’t get into war stories but I am new here (again)... used to be under a number of different usernames... but lost my passwords etc.
So I had my son in November and while I was pregnant I stopped going to meetings etc. and was not taking care of myself. Then the craziness of having a new baby brought even more new struggles and I fell into a hard post partum depression which ended up in me self-medicating ie relapsing every chance I got when baby was in care of someone else....
Finally hit a low bottom of being arrested for assaulting a police officer and miscellaneous other charges... it was humiliating and now everybody knows. I was hiding most everything until then.
I made it to a 6 week long treatment program not even 48 hours after my release from custody and I am going into a 3 month secondary stage treatment program (evening and weekend passes, etc.)....
My son is now 9 months old and babbling away.... cute as pie... I missed his first crawls etc..... sad but I know I need to be doing what I’m doing to stay sober.... dedicated and doing everything I can including using this site when I have kids and can’t make a meeting...
Family all hates me... trying to rebuild trust with my partner and learn how to integrate recovery back into my “old life” and it has been a challenge.
70 days sober from alcohol and cocaine and been on a long doctor prescribed taper program for benzos and finally day 3 off of those completely.
Nice to meet u all!
So I had my son in November and while I was pregnant I stopped going to meetings etc. and was not taking care of myself. Then the craziness of having a new baby brought even more new struggles and I fell into a hard post partum depression which ended up in me self-medicating ie relapsing every chance I got when baby was in care of someone else....
Finally hit a low bottom of being arrested for assaulting a police officer and miscellaneous other charges... it was humiliating and now everybody knows. I was hiding most everything until then.
I made it to a 6 week long treatment program not even 48 hours after my release from custody and I am going into a 3 month secondary stage treatment program (evening and weekend passes, etc.)....
My son is now 9 months old and babbling away.... cute as pie... I missed his first crawls etc..... sad but I know I need to be doing what I’m doing to stay sober.... dedicated and doing everything I can including using this site when I have kids and can’t make a meeting...
Family all hates me... trying to rebuild trust with my partner and learn how to integrate recovery back into my “old life” and it has been a challenge.
70 days sober from alcohol and cocaine and been on a long doctor prescribed taper program for benzos and finally day 3 off of those completely.
Nice to meet u all!
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Hello and welcome back. I'm glad you made it, some don't.
Wow, you've got a lot to deal with. My thoughts are with during these trying times.
You'll find lots of support here, as you may know, so post away.
We're all here for you.
Wow, you've got a lot to deal with. My thoughts are with during these trying times.
You'll find lots of support here, as you may know, so post away.
We're all here for you.
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Welcome back, M!
I am always so happy to see you here. Postpartum depression is so difficult, on top of trying to figure out how to survive being a new Mom. I'm glad you got into treatment and that you have 71 days of sobriety. Your plan to continue in treatment sounds excellent. I'm sure it's tough being away from your baby and knowing that your relationships are vulnerable, but you're doing the right thing.
I am always so happy to see you here. Postpartum depression is so difficult, on top of trying to figure out how to survive being a new Mom. I'm glad you got into treatment and that you have 71 days of sobriety. Your plan to continue in treatment sounds excellent. I'm sure it's tough being away from your baby and knowing that your relationships are vulnerable, but you're doing the right thing.
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I'm so glad you came back, MJ. Congratulations on your 71 days sober.
We all understand what you're going through. You're never alone with the challenges & frustrations. Talking things over here has helped ease my anxiety so many times. Hoping things really begin to improve for you.
We all understand what you're going through. You're never alone with the challenges & frustrations. Talking things over here has helped ease my anxiety so many times. Hoping things really begin to improve for you.
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Joining the chorus to say glad you are back. that is a lot to go through and I’m happy you are on a path to keep you healthy and maintain your bond with your son. Way to go on 71/72 days—depending on when you see this!
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Join Date: Aug 2019
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82 days! Checking in. Made it to my secondary stage treatment and been super busy. Going to a meeting every day and doing the drill. Its been good!
i still feel like my mind will never stop racing on me but hopefully that will come in time....
i still feel like my mind will never stop racing on me but hopefully that will come in time....
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