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Well fini the old help I talk about was willpower and friends along with a few trips to AA. I found AA not for me. I had quit for a five year span but got back at it after some high personal stress. Its time to go back to being sober. Alcohol has intruded every aspect of my life.
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It's so good to meet you, Trojanhorse. I'm glad you're taking action & planning to free yourself of alcohol. It never helps - only brings misery. I wish I'd realized that decades ago.
We're here to encourage & help if we can!
We're here to encourage & help if we can!
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I made it over 4 years without a relapse. Folks like you coming back regretting their relapse help.
Once a pickle never a cucumber. I have brain damage and if relapse i will do more damage.
My brain still works, but the next relapse mught rob me of my balance, speech, or sanity.
There are a ton of ex active drunks on anti depression or physcosis meds. I am free of that. One more relapse i might end up with a dual dignosis.
If i relapse again the crazy may be too much.
It has taken years for my brain to begin to produce natural dopamine. I sleep soundly with no drugs.
I suffered like hell to get here.
I will never give this up.
Thanks.
Once a pickle never a cucumber. I have brain damage and if relapse i will do more damage.
My brain still works, but the next relapse mught rob me of my balance, speech, or sanity.
There are a ton of ex active drunks on anti depression or physcosis meds. I am free of that. One more relapse i might end up with a dual dignosis.
If i relapse again the crazy may be too much.
It has taken years for my brain to begin to produce natural dopamine. I sleep soundly with no drugs.
I suffered like hell to get here.
I will never give this up.
Thanks.
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Originally Posted by fini 
yes, willpower and friends works for some and not for others. it never got me past a little while. 5years on willpower is incredible to me.
what specifically is it that you want to have “sink in”?
what specifically is it that you want to have “sink in”?
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Originally Posted by D122y
I made it over 4 years without a relapse. Folks like you coming back regretting their relapse help.
Once a pickle never a cucumber. I have brain damage and if relapse i will do more damage.
My brain still works, but the next relapse mught rob me of my balance, speech, or sanity.
There are a ton of ex active drunks on anti depression or physcosis meds. I am free of that. One more relapse i might end up with a dual dignosis.
If i relapse again the crazy may be too much.
It has taken years for my brain to begin to produce natural dopamine. I sleep soundly with no drugs.
I suffered like hell to get here.
I will never give this up.
Thanks.
Once a pickle never a cucumber. I have brain damage and if relapse i will do more damage.
My brain still works, but the next relapse mught rob me of my balance, speech, or sanity.
There are a ton of ex active drunks on anti depression or physcosis meds. I am free of that. One more relapse i might end up with a dual dignosis.
If i relapse again the crazy may be too much.
It has taken years for my brain to begin to produce natural dopamine. I sleep soundly with no drugs.
I suffered like hell to get here.
I will never give this up.
Thanks.
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Originally Posted by Trojanhorse
I think I am still in a partial fantasy that I can control this.
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Everytime I started to think that maybe my relationship with alcohol might be different now, I knew I was in trouble. It never was, or would be, any different now.
I call that the gift of Acceptance
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I call that the gift of Acceptance
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Hi TrojanHorse, and welcome!
AA "wasn't for me" either. I went anyhow and struggled through. For the most part, the meetings were just fine; it was some peoples' responses to me afterward that rubbed me the wrong way. I appreciate real conversations, not so much pat phrases. I'm back in the rooms now with a different attitude. I believe the core of the program, the 12 steps, is a sound approach to life for anyone who can find or even believe in the possibility of a higher power. The old-timey phrases are part of the package. They do really have meaning even if they do grate on my nerves. Everybody works their program in their own way. If I go to a meeting twice and don't like that one, I find a different one. Not trying to convince you of anything, just saying it might be different if you try again.
SR has been a vital support for me, particularly when I've used it with a vengeance. At minimum, I'd encourage you to do a lot of reading around the forums and post at least daily. There's a wealth of knowledge in this place like no other.
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AA "wasn't for me" either. I went anyhow and struggled through. For the most part, the meetings were just fine; it was some peoples' responses to me afterward that rubbed me the wrong way. I appreciate real conversations, not so much pat phrases. I'm back in the rooms now with a different attitude. I believe the core of the program, the 12 steps, is a sound approach to life for anyone who can find or even believe in the possibility of a higher power. The old-timey phrases are part of the package. They do really have meaning even if they do grate on my nerves.
Everybody works their program in their own way. If I go to a meeting twice and don't like that one, I find a different one. Not trying to convince you of anything, just saying it might be different if you try again.SR has been a vital support for me, particularly when I've used it with a vengeance. At minimum, I'd encourage you to do a lot of reading around the forums and post at least daily. There's a wealth of knowledge in this place like no other.
O
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Originally Posted by Obladi
Hi TrojanHorse, and welcome!
AA "wasn't for me" either. I went anyhow and struggled through. For the most part, the meetings were just fine; it was some peoples' responses to me afterward that rubbed me the wrong way. I appreciate real conversations, not so much pat phrases. I'm back in the rooms now with a different attitude. I believe the core of the program, the 12 steps, is a sound approach to life for anyone who can find or even believe in the possibility of a higher power. The old-timey phrases are part of the package. They do really have meaning even if they do grate on my nerves. Everybody works their program in their own way. If I go to a meeting twice and don't like that one, I find a different one. Not trying to convince you of anything, just saying it might be different if you try again.
SR has been a vital support for me, particularly when I've used it with a vengeance. At minimum, I'd encourage you to do a lot of reading around the forums and post at least daily. There's a wealth of knowledge in this place like no other.
O
AA "wasn't for me" either. I went anyhow and struggled through. For the most part, the meetings were just fine; it was some peoples' responses to me afterward that rubbed me the wrong way. I appreciate real conversations, not so much pat phrases. I'm back in the rooms now with a different attitude. I believe the core of the program, the 12 steps, is a sound approach to life for anyone who can find or even believe in the possibility of a higher power. The old-timey phrases are part of the package. They do really have meaning even if they do grate on my nerves.
Everybody works their program in their own way. If I go to a meeting twice and don't like that one, I find a different one. Not trying to convince you of anything, just saying it might be different if you try again.SR has been a vital support for me, particularly when I've used it with a vengeance. At minimum, I'd encourage you to do a lot of reading around the forums and post at least daily. There's a wealth of knowledge in this place like no other.
O
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Originally Posted by AnvilheadII
I think I am still in a partial fantasy that I can control this.
you can......if you never drink again. then you are absolutely in control of the outcome.
you can......if you never drink again. then you are absolutely in control of the outcome.
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