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In the days when I was still drinking and starting to admit to myself that I had a problem, I would reason to myself "At least I'm a functioning alcoholic like my Grandma and not like my non-functioning Dad". It all went out the window when I sneaking off during lunch break to grab a bottle and take a few nips to get through the day and calling in 'sick' a lot to drink all day.
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I am in AA and there is a lovely woman in my meeting who always says "leave your pride at the door". Take a deep breath, pray for courage and walk into a meeting. It's not a social situation, it's a lifesaver. Don't die because of pride. 🙏❤🙏❤
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Join Date: Oct 2018
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This is beautiful. I am from a strict dutch family, we live and die by our stoutness. I want to be healed, I was so embarrassed by what I posted that I avoided this site for 4 days. I thought I could never come back. I need to get outside my comfort zone if I'm going to fight this. Thank You for all of your responses, it is so appreciated.
You can't fight it. Alcohol is stronger that any Dutch stoutness!
You were saying you hope you don't stop for beer on your way home? My car drove me to the liquor store all on its on, irrestistably, inexorably...and that was decades before self-driving Icars. Then I'd buy a bottle of anisetta (my family is Italian) for the ride home
When I gave up fighting to control my drinking, I reached out, asked for help, and found people who no longer drank.
You were saying you hope you don't stop for beer on your way home? My car drove me to the liquor store all on its on, irrestistably, inexorably...and that was decades before self-driving Icars. Then I'd buy a bottle of anisetta (my family is Italian) for the ride home
When I gave up fighting to control my drinking, I reached out, asked for help, and found people who no longer drank.
Giggler, there's nothing that says you can't start a new thread at any time if you want to leave this one behind.
But please do post - you've got a lot of support here ready and waiting, all you need to do is show up and talk about what's going on.
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But please do post - you've got a lot of support here ready and waiting, all you need to do is show up and talk about what's going on.
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I'm going to ask my friend tomorrow if there is a meeting I can go to with her. My mom took me to weight watchers meetings as a child I imagine it can't be much worse than that. I am very appreciative of all your responses, several months too late. For some reason when I admit and beg for help I feel the most ashamed. I'm so sorry I'm not a shining example of sobriety. I will be one day.
Nothing to be ashamed of here in this community - we've all been there.
Nothing wrong with asking for help either.
Asking to go with your friends seems like a good start - maybe also regular posting here again?
Nothing wrong with asking for help either.
Asking to go with your friends seems like a good start - maybe also regular posting here again?
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Join Date: Nov 2019
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Admitting you need help and support is what makes you strong. And human. I read posts on SR for years before i got the courage to share some of my story. And each time I read it now, I gulp, wince and take a deep breath and accept that it’s my truth and nothing hurts more than the truth. So, if there’s ever a time that I “forget” that I have a problem, I can always come back to re-read it to remember. There’s a saying that’s something like fall 7 times, but get back up 8. Don’t give up!
I’m an introvert too. You’ll find many people in AA are also awkward in social situations. You don’t need to be social, just sit and listen to start if you want. AA meetings are one of the last places you’ll be judged.
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