Well This Has Ramped Up A Level
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Hi,
I can't believe how much time has passed since I started this thread, though I'm not counting days, months have now passed and not even a sniff of alcohol. I guess the longer you go without something then it almost becomes like it doesn't exist, or it does exist but it's like those items sold in supermarkets that you notice on the shelves but never ever buy them. All except lemon curd that is, I have a deep fear of that stuff and the thought of it makes me feel ill, somehow it always manages to catch my eye.
Oh, if you should ever visit the drive through at McDonalds in Milton Keynes then be aware of 3 extremely pretty young ladies who climb into your car as you are sitting in the queue waiting to place your order. 2 of them get into the passenger side and tell you how gorgeous you are then shower you with kisses. The third one climbs into the back of your car and then steals your wallet and any other valuables you might have laying around.
So far I've been robbed last Monday, Tuesday, Friday and this morning!
I hope you are well and life is treating you well.
I'll write again soon
Houstin
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I can't believe how much time has passed since I started this thread, though I'm not counting days, months have now passed and not even a sniff of alcohol. I guess the longer you go without something then it almost becomes like it doesn't exist, or it does exist but it's like those items sold in supermarkets that you notice on the shelves but never ever buy them. All except lemon curd that is, I have a deep fear of that stuff and the thought of it makes me feel ill, somehow it always manages to catch my eye.
Oh, if you should ever visit the drive through at McDonalds in Milton Keynes then be aware of 3 extremely pretty young ladies who climb into your car as you are sitting in the queue waiting to place your order. 2 of them get into the passenger side and tell you how gorgeous you are then shower you with kisses. The third one climbs into the back of your car and then steals your wallet and any other valuables you might have laying around.
So far I've been robbed last Monday, Tuesday, Friday and this morning!
I hope you are well and life is treating you well.
I'll write again soon
Houstin
(((Hugs)))
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Hello, 
I hope all is well?
I've been keeping myself busy building this extension and it should be all finished by Friday, !
I had a very peculiar morning today, it all started when I woke up and came downstairs to a large A4 size card posted through the letterbox. As I looked down at it on the carpet I read in very large words 'DO NOT BEND'
One hour later and I was still trying to work out how to pick it up.
Anyway I then phoned the local automobile parts centre as I needed a bulb.
I said, 'Hello, do you do headlight bulbs?'
The lady replied, 'yes we do, what is it for?'
'So I can drive my car in the dark' I sighed.
My life is so strange. It's almost like I'm back to front to everybody else. Even last week a nice lady who I had been talking too for months said to me 'how about a weekend away in a quiet hotel wink wink'
Well I had a fabulous time, but I think she wanted to come as well because she's not speaking to me now.
Mind you even the hotel had it's moments. I asked the receptionist for a wake up call.
She replied, 'your 50 years old, done nothing with your life and haven't got a home'
Take care
Houstin
(((hugs)))
I hope all is well?
I've been keeping myself busy building this extension and it should be all finished by Friday, !
I had a very peculiar morning today, it all started when I woke up and came downstairs to a large A4 size card posted through the letterbox. As I looked down at it on the carpet I read in very large words 'DO NOT BEND'
One hour later and I was still trying to work out how to pick it up.
Anyway I then phoned the local automobile parts centre as I needed a bulb.
I said, 'Hello, do you do headlight bulbs?'
The lady replied, 'yes we do, what is it for?'
'So I can drive my car in the dark' I sighed.
My life is so strange. It's almost like I'm back to front to everybody else. Even last week a nice lady who I had been talking too for months said to me 'how about a weekend away in a quiet hotel wink wink'
Well I had a fabulous time, but I think she wanted to come as well because she's not speaking to me now.
Mind you even the hotel had it's moments. I asked the receptionist for a wake up call.
She replied, 'your 50 years old, done nothing with your life and haven't got a home'
Take care
Houstin
(((hugs)))
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Originally Posted by Houstin 
Lost everything to alcohol I'm starting to think. Nothing else to lose kind of attitude then took me on a new journey and within the last month switched from beer to spirits, something I have never done in 30 years of drinking.
One bottle of high percentage spirits and the new journey became blacking out.
And if I'm to be honest I quite liked it because it meant I did not have to live in this real world anymore. Yet staying blacked out is impossible for me to do?
Yet one tiny little thing eats at me, I tend to Email someone and only realise I have done so the next day!
I have enormous respect for this person yet they can drive me crazy at times.
I dumped my phone so I could not text them, I'm wondering if I should dump this laptop as well.
Not sure if I have an alcohol problem, if I tell myself I do then I will, kind of lost completely writing this, sorry if it makes no sense, it doesn't make any sense to me either!
One bottle of high percentage spirits and the new journey became blacking out.
And if I'm to be honest I quite liked it because it meant I did not have to live in this real world anymore. Yet staying blacked out is impossible for me to do?
Yet one tiny little thing eats at me, I tend to Email someone and only realise I have done so the next day!
I have enormous respect for this person yet they can drive me crazy at times.
I dumped my phone so I could not text them, I'm wondering if I should dump this laptop as well.
Not sure if I have an alcohol problem, if I tell myself I do then I will, kind of lost completely writing this, sorry if it makes no sense, it doesn't make any sense to me either!
I've texted and said things in a blackout I would never even think sober. And it just fuels the fire for the next binge.
It's the alcohol. It's the cycle. It's not the underlying you and it's not technology.
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