CRRHCC

We have free will and can choose our, "Best available option for happiness.” This premise might seem trite or ludicrous at first thought, but it is ripe with profound meaning. One engages in specific behaviors because they believe it will give them temporary happiness. They stop abusing when they decide abusing is not the best option for their happiness.

Anna

Shift, when I was caught up in alcoholic drinking, I felt there were no choices, no options either. But, there are options. You could choose to pay for the prescription, or maybe go to an ER to detox in a safe place. Could you get a neighbour to look after your dogs for a few days while you are in detox? Maybe a young teen would be happy to make a few bucks to feed and walk your dogs?

You are not a loser but you must not give up.

desertkid

See if your state has a drug assistance program, ask your doctor if he has any free samples that haven't been used, maybe apply for Medicaid(it's not based on only income), find out the maker of the drug and contact them and see if they have any assistance programs.
There are ways to get assistance. Ask a friend for a loan if need be but do not quit. Keep fighting.

sva777

I was in your situation and felt lost. It seemed everyone around me had enough and I was all alone. I kept drinking anyway until I woke up in the emergency room. I was almost dead from mixing benzos with alcohol, my wife somehow got me to the hospital. I was able to detox properly. Along with spending lots of time here I had to make many life adjustments to recover. That night while one of the worst was also the beginning of my recovery. There are always people willing to help if you allow them too. I hope you can get into a detox center.

suki44883

If you die, who is going to take care of your dogs?

thomas11

Good point. What do you think shifthappens?

Misssy2

My heart breaks for you...I don't even know what to say except I am here too for you.

ShiftHappens

Im trying not to be scared. I have no family and dont think I have ever felt supported in my life

Im tired. I cant be strong anymore.

I think I had a complete mental and emotional breakdown.

Thanks Misssy

least

When I was drinking, I always felt depressed. Hopeless and hating myself. It took a little while, but after getting sober I found my mood lifting and I didn't feel such overwhelming despair anymore.

Do whatever you need to do to get sober. I think you will feel a lot better after you've been sober for a while. Hang on and get help for yourself. It gets better.

desertkid

Screw that ****, man. You CAN be strong. We are here for you. Keep posting and asking for help and we will keep responding for you. Get someone to be with you and help you. Do it for the dogs. Do it for God. Do it for something that you love.

Hawkeye13

Good Morning Shift

Thinking of you and wishing you and your pups a peaceful day.
Can you eat something and maybe get them out for a short walk this morning?

It might help you all feel better.

sva777

How are you feeling Shift?

ShiftHappens

Thank you for asking.

Honestly, I dont really know how I feel.

I saw some posts here about about social media and now my TV is in the other room because it irritates the F out off me.

Seems like this entertainment thing is just about the money.

Im sick of life

ShiftHappens

I m really already dead. I just want some peace.

im tired of this life.

Anna

Shift, it might be time to call your doctor or to go to an ER for some help. I'm sorry that you're struggling so much and I hope you find some peace.

ShiftHappens

Everyone just wants money. The doctors the lawyers, the funeral directors, the state, the anti anging companies...well they already milked me dry

Abraham

Back when I was drinking all day it would have cost me about $300. $230 is a deal.

Anna

Shift, there is no cost for you to come here. Also, AA is free and The Salvation Army offers free rehab, too. Please know that you can get sober and recover without having to pay for it.

FreshStartOk

I'm always amazed how much alcohol contributes to those horrible feelings of hopelessness and guilt. Of course, most of us have other problems we'll have to deal with in the long run, but a lot of problems are solved by staying away from drink, if not soon after, in time.

One of the reasons I'm trying to stay sober for good now is the mental, emotional trauma is getting worse, along with the physical effects. I hope ShiftHappens come out the other side, like many on this site have proved is possible.

SoberCAH

Please get help, amigo.

If you seek professional help, i suspect the answer to your pet dilemma will make itself clear.

BTW, I was in your mental and physical condition when I finally mustered up the temerity to seek help.

And I haven't had a drink since.