Still got an ear infection. Mother won’t talk to me
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I’m really sorry you drank again Sweeti. I truly think going to rehab is your only option at this point. You have not been able to do this on your own, or with AA or outpatient, I think taking your Super and investing in yourself is a wise decision. Once you get some sober time under your belt you may be able to get a part time job and save some extra money.
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This gives some information about numbers to call about your Super and using it for rehab.
https://siamrehab.com/superannuation/
https://siamrehab.com/superannuation/
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Originally Posted by sweetichick1 
I am thinking of taking my super to use for rehab. Even if I start smoking again nothing else could be that much worse. I need to ring them tomorrow to find out if I am eligible. Why should my daughters get all the money
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I fell overrr and hit my head last night.. I was on the floor. 14. Hours. Now I know what is going to happen again with my walking if. I don’t stop not being able to walk
.itt. Was the most terrifying feeling I am never drinking again.
.itt. Was the most terrifying feeling I am never drinking again.
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Ouch. I'm sorry to hear that. They usually recommend you get any sort of head injury checked out. Keep an eye on yourself at least.
It is an ever present danger with drinkers, and it can only take one time for it to be disaster.
It is an ever present danger with drinkers, and it can only take one time for it to be disaster.
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Oh no sweeti! So sorry to hear that happened. Please get checked out and check back and let us know how you are. Is there anyone who can check in on you. I am worried you isolate yourself so much. I really think you need to be around people.
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Please get your head checked out, Sweeti. I hope you're ok.
This was the hardest thing for me to understand: external events won't get you sober. They can be the catalyst to change in order to get sober.
But fear is not a recovery plan.
Will you go to inpatient? Will you do the steps with a sponsor? Will you work the recovery worksheets in SMART with a mentor? Will you see an addiction specialist and be honest? Will you post here with a willingness to change?
There's not one path to sobriety, but they all involve change.
I hope you'll use this frightening event to spur you into seeking change.
I'm not saying this to scare you, but I know from experience that the helplessness I felt when I wanted to drink was more powerful than any fear. I swore off drinking after terrifying myself and was often drunk again later that day or the next.
Sweeti, what are you willing to do?
Maybe you could start by writing out all of your problems with drinking. Why you want to quit. Here or in a private journal. Get really, really honest with yourself and hopefully with another person. There is help. But you have to work for it.
But please do something.
This was the hardest thing for me to understand: external events won't get you sober. They can be the catalyst to change in order to get sober.
But fear is not a recovery plan.
Will you go to inpatient? Will you do the steps with a sponsor? Will you work the recovery worksheets in SMART with a mentor? Will you see an addiction specialist and be honest? Will you post here with a willingness to change?
There's not one path to sobriety, but they all involve change.
I hope you'll use this frightening event to spur you into seeking change.
I'm not saying this to scare you, but I know from experience that the helplessness I felt when I wanted to drink was more powerful than any fear. I swore off drinking after terrifying myself and was often drunk again later that day or the next.
Sweeti, what are you willing to do?
Maybe you could start by writing out all of your problems with drinking. Why you want to quit. Here or in a private journal. Get really, really honest with yourself and hopefully with another person. There is help. But you have to work for it.
But please do something.
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Dear sweeti I’m not wanting to be harsh here but I don’t think you can make it without rehab. I think this illness will destroy you and take your life. Please please look at the reality here you have been in this cycle for a long time and said you won’t drink again. You always do and that’s why you need rehab inpatient to get at least a month away from any possible temptation. This is serious nothing about smoking or your mum dad daughters ex etc etc this is your life. Please get something sorted go to rehab take the life line because you desperately need it sweeti
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Feeling much better today. I. Can still barely get out of bed or off the lounge. Not as dizzy as yesterday. I will ring the super office to see if I can access the money for rehab. Outpatient is tomorrow. I have no desire to drink after spend ing so much time on the floor that night. Iam still really weak. I am going back to Aa once I can walk properly. Thanks for all the support everyone..
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i don't think it can be stressed enough just how serious and severe your condition is now, sweeti. and that you absolutely MUST take every action you can to stop your alcoholism in it's tracks. your body is not able to keep up with your alcohol consumption anymore. and one day it's just gonna stop trying.
after your last drinking binge before this one, you stated you had the shakes and feeling very unwell for six DAYS. you then "forgot" how bad it was and chose to drink again. THIS time you fell and were passed out on the floor for an extended period of time. today you are still experiencing dizziness and fatigue and can barely walk.
what are you going to do to assure that in a few days time you don't "forget" again and buy alcohol?
after your last drinking binge before this one, you stated you had the shakes and feeling very unwell for six DAYS. you then "forgot" how bad it was and chose to drink again. THIS time you fell and were passed out on the floor for an extended period of time. today you are still experiencing dizziness and fatigue and can barely walk.
what are you going to do to assure that in a few days time you don't "forget" again and buy alcohol?
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I got checked out..no concussion. Whoever wrote that fear won’t keep me off forever was right. I didn’t drink today though and feel so much better. I have a history of leaving rehabs. I was in one for a month and drank as soon as I got out.
.others I only stayed a few days. I’m thinking of getting more serious about Aa.. it would cost a lot less. Just start going back to meetings
.And take it day by day. Make sobriety first priority.
.others I only stayed a few days. I’m thinking of getting more serious about Aa.. it would cost a lot less. Just start going back to meetings
.And take it day by day. Make sobriety first priority.
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