Home alone. Sitting with feelings without a drink.
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Home alone. Sitting with feelings without a drink.
What's the point of picking up? It doesn't do what I hope. I keep hoping I will feel light, free, jovial, content. It doesn't do that anymore. Did it ever? Now I only feel ashamed, numb but not numb enough. And the dark voices of hopelessness. Just me giving in to the machine of addiction.
I hope I never give into it again. I'm sick of having to around it. I need to fight this. I'm so passive about the constant exposure to alcohol. I need to get angry. Anyway. Day 3. Im counting this time.
I hope I never give into it again. I'm sick of having to around it. I need to fight this. I'm so passive about the constant exposure to alcohol. I need to get angry. Anyway. Day 3. Im counting this time.
What's the point of picking up? It doesn't do what I hope. I keep hoping I will feel light, free, jovial, content. It doesn't do that anymore. Did it ever? Now I only feel ashamed, numb but not numb enough. And the dark voices of hopelessness. Just me giving in to the machine of addiction.
I hope I never give into it again. I'm sick of having to around it. I need to fight this. I'm so passive about the constant exposure to alcohol. I need to get angry. Anyway. Day 3. Im counting this time.
I hope I never give into it again. I'm sick of having to around it. I need to fight this. I'm so passive about the constant exposure to alcohol. I need to get angry. Anyway. Day 3. Im counting this time.
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