Day 8
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Day 8
Day seven was weird. And as I said in that post I had this strange black out type sleep. Posted here and then slept again for eight hours.
So progress, checked the clock in the morning and was shocked to see it was 8.22am.
So I put that on my list of pluses.
1. Sleep actual sleep
2. Clarity. I think I am making more sense and seem more rational
But my list of minuses is still longer
1. Regret for all the decisions I made. I can argue it was like alcohol had a gun to my head but it isn't a moral or legal defence.
2. Neglect all the professional and interpersonal relationships I pushed aside in favour of vodka.
3. Mood, not depressed, not positive. Alcohol always made me feel wittier, more creative, more able to engage with people. I reported on TV absolutely wasted several times and was praised (little did they know...until they did...) which leads to...
4. Grief for what I lost and sacrificed for my love affair with vodka.
5. Energy. Still feeling zapped.
6. Physical. I still feel liver pain, cramping (especially in my right pinky - sounds trivial but it is hard to hold my phone), redness - I look sunburned and blotchy. Finally I can still smell alcohol.
So progress, checked the clock in the morning and was shocked to see it was 8.22am.
So I put that on my list of pluses.
1. Sleep actual sleep
2. Clarity. I think I am making more sense and seem more rational
But my list of minuses is still longer
1. Regret for all the decisions I made. I can argue it was like alcohol had a gun to my head but it isn't a moral or legal defence.
2. Neglect all the professional and interpersonal relationships I pushed aside in favour of vodka.
3. Mood, not depressed, not positive. Alcohol always made me feel wittier, more creative, more able to engage with people. I reported on TV absolutely wasted several times and was praised (little did they know...until they did...) which leads to...
4. Grief for what I lost and sacrificed for my love affair with vodka.
5. Energy. Still feeling zapped.
6. Physical. I still feel liver pain, cramping (especially in my right pinky - sounds trivial but it is hard to hold my phone), redness - I look sunburned and blotchy. Finally I can still smell alcohol.
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Day 8 -> Day 9 ->
Step 1 -> Step 2 ->
Sometimes all I could do, was remember the saying ... Do the Next-Right-Thing.
When I couldn't even process what the Next-Right-Thing would be, I just had to Do-The-Next-Thing-That-Needed-To-Be-Done, as long as it was Not ... the next Wrong thing.
Keep posting on your progress, Struggler.
Step 1 -> Step 2 ->
Sometimes all I could do, was remember the saying ... Do the Next-Right-Thing.
When I couldn't even process what the Next-Right-Thing would be, I just had to Do-The-Next-Thing-That-Needed-To-Be-Done, as long as it was Not ... the next Wrong thing.
Keep posting on your progress, Struggler.
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