Went to funeral for an addict's suicide
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Hi All. I went to the hospital today. My heart was fluttering. The doc said it's either the Wellbutrin, the pot of coffee I drink daily and/or anxiety. The tests came back all good. I got a lackluster review at work. I had a falling out with my ex. Didn't drink tho. I had so many phony reasons. I wish I liked myself. I gotta develop a relationship with myself whatever that means. At least I didn't make the day worse by drinking.
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9:44pm Hi friends on here. I look forward to checking in here. I am still here. I forgot to take the naltrexone today but had no desire to drink. I worked all day. That's pretty rare. I'm glad. I was miserable all day. In a fog. Fearful. Judgemental. Of me and Everyone. I'm happy.(?) I didn't drink tho. I'm in bed. Exhausted.. I'm going to Los Angeles tomorrow. Maybe I'll check out a meeting there. Somewhere where I won't know anyone. I'm not counting days. What's the point? Grateful for this place.
Hang in there, kitty!
i know it sucks but take it from everyone here: life gets so much better after 30 days clean. Just have faith and tough it out.
Dont worry about the boredom, you will find new interests, new hobbies and new friends and life will become exciting. But first you have to survive the first 30 days.
This is like McDonald's, you have to pay UP FRONT before you get to eat. So you have to suffer those 30 days before life gets better. I am in the same boat on day 6.
Let us all lean on each other and we can make it thru the rough waves. You already know what will happen if you pick up.
Dont pick up unless you want to endure more anguish and misery for the rest of your life. Your life can actually get much, much worse than it is now if you pick up. DONT FIND OUT what your "rock bottom" looks like if you go back out again.
i know it sucks but take it from everyone here: life gets so much better after 30 days clean. Just have faith and tough it out.
Dont worry about the boredom, you will find new interests, new hobbies and new friends and life will become exciting. But first you have to survive the first 30 days.
This is like McDonald's, you have to pay UP FRONT before you get to eat. So you have to suffer those 30 days before life gets better. I am in the same boat on day 6.
Let us all lean on each other and we can make it thru the rough waves. You already know what will happen if you pick up.
Dont pick up unless you want to endure more anguish and misery for the rest of your life. Your life can actually get much, much worse than it is now if you pick up. DONT FIND OUT what your "rock bottom" looks like if you go back out again.
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