91 Days!
 

Just wanted to check back in after a little absence. I'm not a regular poster but usually read people's posts. I've started my new job as a Support Worker so I've been quite busy.

It's been 91 days now and I've honestly never felt better. It's so strange to have so many mixed feelings about sobriety. I'm so positive but full of the regret that I didn't do this sooner. I am 29 and spent the vast majority of my 20s a hungover mess! I know the past is in the past but I'm still resenting myself for it.

Still, as I say - never felt better and that's the main thing.

Hope everyone is well!

Gray x

I've dealt with similar regrets, and have to fight the Alcoholic Voice telling me, "You drank for 10 (or 20, 30....) years, so that how far behind in life you are!" (My Alcoholic Voice likes to use math to screw with me) But the optimistic side of me remembers that even though we might be worse than most, lots of people in their 20's take the "fun life" a little too far. It's not like we didn't accomplish anything at all and everyone else was stone sober the whole time and giving 110% to productive things.

Also, for me, this was the beating and wakeup call I needed to do some serious work on myself. I interact with some people 20-30 years older than me who might not drink, but seem to be at the spiritual development of a teenager (in my opinion, as someone entirely unqualified to make that assessment) So I'm glad I got the wakeup call I needed before it was too late to make any changes, BUT, as an alcoholic and a free person, I'm free to flush it all tomorrow, and need to stay in the Now and grateful so that doesn't happen.

Thanks for sharing! This helped me sort some things out a little better.

Congratulations on ninety one days! That's quiet an achievement, so good going.
There's no use regretting the past. We can't change it, so there's no use reliving it.
Yes, never feeling better is the main thing. I'm really glad for you. And the even better news is, it only gets better.
Best to you and congratulations on your new job. It sounds very rewarding.

Thank you guys and I'm glad it helped :)

Congrats! Happy that you're feeling so well! Keep up the great work. You're awesome!

Great going!

Well done GrayJ and best of luck with your new job.
My 20's were a mess too, also a good part of my 30's and a few years here and there in my 40's. Glad you figured it out sooner. Sounds like you have a great plan and are set up well for your 30's and beyond.

congats on 90 days and on the new job GrayJ :)

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Congratulations on 91 days and a new job, Gray! Keep it up!