lola1987

Today I am 4weeks sober. I have relapsed so many times I thought I was done for. I kept on having continuous pain in my liver area after a binge and also pain in my chest. I now know alcohol affects every organ. Today was my nieces christening. I had to go as I am her godmother. So the church went well then off to the restaurant. No one in my family knows my struggles. They know I drank alot but they don't know I am an alcoholic. And have been since I was 24 I am now 31. So back to the restaurant, everyone was drinking bar myself my mum(she is currently on antibiotics) and the children. And I done it. I craved like a mad woman but I did not give in. After the restaurant all of my family were going to my brothers house for drinks and fun. I made my excuses. I came home and ironed a pile of clothes I had not got to as I was out all day yesterday with my mum and children at an adventure park. My mum will now drop my daughter home to me after the kids have had lots of fun and worn themselves out. I will be up tomorrow fresh as a daisy heading off to work to begin another sober week. Something in me has changed. I crave yet I know I won't do it. I just feel stronger. I know I will kill myself and my children need me. I need to be healthy. I hope everyone has had a good day x

least

Congrats on the first of many months sober!

BrianK

Congratulations and thanks for sharing!!! It's been helpful to me to read posts like this and expect cravings to come sometimes, and not feel like I'm "working a bad program" because I got a little craving.

nadt

Congrats on a month! Thanks for sharing your story!

lola1987

Thanks all ❤️. Brian I crave all the time. Sometimes at the most random of times but I will always crave. I just have to say to myself NO. Its not worth it. I watched alot of YouTube documentaries regarding alcohol and what it does to your body and it is complete poison. It is like pouring petrol onto a fire. Its so bad for us. I am just going to take it day by day and hopefully il get through another week. It hasn't been easy at all my other half still drinks alcohol and all my family so I have to keep a distance at times and just think of My health. If a craving comes I watch a YouTube documentary and it turns me right off

MantaLady

Great news Lola and keep up the good work! xx

Anna

Lola, what a great post! I know you will inspire lots of newbies with your story. Good job on 4 weeks of sobriety.

HideMe

Way to stay strong!! Congratulations to you 😃

lola1987

Thank you everyone. This site is amazing and I will be on it continuously. This is my time now to shine. I will not let this beast defeat me. I am stronger then it and I know my life is going to be so much better. Financially I am already in a much better place. I'v a holiday booked with my mum and kids for 3 weeks at the end of July. That in itself will be a huge test. But I know I will have a fantastic sober holiday and spend all of my money on clothes rather then alcohol 😁 clothes wins hands down

Hevyn

4 weeks - wonderful news, lola!

Newbeginning421

Congrats on 4 weeks sober! Keep up the good work!

Zamie

That's amazing Lola. I'm on day 23! Fighting to get to that first month milestone. If you can do it then so can I. Thank you.

Misssy2

Amazing....very good work! Especially since you said no one really knows you are an alcoholic...you could have easily drank without anyone breathing down your neck.

My whole family knows and if I had a drink in front of anyone they would be terrified...

I'm so happy for you and congratulations on one month sober!

Abraham

Indeed it does. Thanks for a great post.

Dee74

I'm really pleased for you Iola

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