Class of June Part 1 2019
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Thanks Citrus. I know I'm going to feel so good and proud of myself just for reaching day 5. I haven't gotten that far in a long time.
I have a list of all the reasons why alcohol can't be a part of my life. But then the urges hit and all common sense goes out the window. I start thinking "I can have just a few" or "I deserve it" or other variations of the same lie and give in. Wake up the next day feeling physically terrible, shocked and upset about the amount I drank, and embarrassed for having this issue to begin with. It's true, you never wake up the next day feeling that drinking was a good idea.
It's still early in the month and I know I have the chance to make this June a good one.
I have a list of all the reasons why alcohol can't be a part of my life. But then the urges hit and all common sense goes out the window. I start thinking "I can have just a few" or "I deserve it" or other variations of the same lie and give in. Wake up the next day feeling physically terrible, shocked and upset about the amount I drank, and embarrassed for having this issue to begin with. It's true, you never wake up the next day feeling that drinking was a good idea.
It's still early in the month and I know I have the chance to make this June a good one.
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Morning day 6 still not sleeping 
Huge development yesterday I finally broke down in tears & admitted to my hubby I have a very unhealthy relationship / with booze I’m an alcoholic he has been telling me for years I’m an drunk I was surprised his very supportive. Of my journey he said this feels different !
Went to meet our friends in town yesterday that I used to drink with I got pressured about drinking I stood firm but my hubby who rarely drinks said I’ll have a beer so they would stop asking me 😀 later we joked he took one for the team
Now if I could only start to sleep at night
Have a great day all
Huge development yesterday I finally broke down in tears & admitted to my hubby I have a very unhealthy relationship / with booze I’m an alcoholic he has been telling me for years I’m an drunk I was surprised his very supportive. Of my journey he said this feels different !
Went to meet our friends in town yesterday that I used to drink with I got pressured about drinking I stood firm but my hubby who rarely drinks said I’ll have a beer so they would stop asking me 😀 later we joked he took one for the team
Now if I could only start to sleep at night
Have a great day all
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sry to hear that new x
past few hrs i have been struggling even put myself back to bed but got up as hub said we needed coffee so went with him to get myself out of stupid cycle i go in when im not drinking. So i will be having some dinner shortly instead of sulking in bed. Got work tomo so up early and see if my sludge of a mood improves then.
have a good evening all x
past few hrs i have been struggling even put myself back to bed but got up as hub said we needed coffee so went with him to get myself out of stupid cycle i go in when im not drinking. So i will be having some dinner shortly instead of sulking in bed. Got work tomo so up early and see if my sludge of a mood improves then.
have a good evening all x
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Originally Posted by Citrus 
Get smart, the first week is so hard. But it is so worth it to get past it.
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Went to see the doctor today. She says I'm overweight, got pre diabetes oh and she tells me I'm anxious and suggested counselling. So it was all good news. not. I know all this and know I need to take care of myself better. I'm not drinking, eating better and started to exercise today too. It was the wake up call I needed to take better care. Maybe being anxious and depressed makes me eat badly. Or maybe i'm depressed because I'm fat and feel awful. I don't know. Anyway I feel really flippin depressed this evening. And hungry
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Originally Posted by ReadyAtLast
Went to see the doctor today. She says I'm overweight, got pre diabetes oh and she tells me I'm anxious and suggested counselling. So it was all good news. not. I know all this and know I need to take care of myself better. I'm not drinking, eating better and started to exercise today too. It was the wake up call I needed to take better care. Maybe being anxious and depressed makes me eat badly. Or maybe i'm depressed because I'm fat and feel awful. I don't know. Anyway I feel really flippin depressed this evening. And hungry
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Originally Posted by Newbeginning421
I have just recently started exercising and eating better it definitely has improved my mood quite a bit.
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Hi all. Checking in for the afternoon. About to my witching hour, but I am feeling good so far. Little tried.
RAL to hear that would be disheartening. But you are taking the first step with sobriety to change it.
Be gentle with yourself.
RAL to hear that would be disheartening. But you are taking the first step with sobriety to change it.
Be gentle with yourself.
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Day 66 here, getting errands, gym, paperwork done. Having a strawberry banana smoothie before playing tennis with my husband. I’m fresh out of one major PAWS episode and decided to take it easy on myself. My first 9 weeks of sobriety I worked an intense temporary job, made it to the gym 5 days a week, paid off bills, saved money even. I’ve been reading a lot of literature about quitting drinking and completing the SMART workbook. I’m growing, even though I yet to obtain a high paying position or didn’t lose 15 lbs. I did lose 2.5-5 lbs depending on if the scale likes me or now that day. I’ve probably gained muscle too as I weight train after cardio.
Yesterday I finally made it to the beach, first time since being sober. We went to the dog beach. Walked the dogs, husband had 2 beers, I did a few yoga sun salutations, took photos, ate a picnic lunch. Then after about 2 hours my AV had all it could handle and we left. There’s a bar on the pier by the dog beach, so I had to get out. On to day 67. Can’t believe I made it this far, never want to have to claw myself back up from where I was.
Yesterday I finally made it to the beach, first time since being sober. We went to the dog beach. Walked the dogs, husband had 2 beers, I did a few yoga sun salutations, took photos, ate a picnic lunch. Then after about 2 hours my AV had all it could handle and we left. There’s a bar on the pier by the dog beach, so I had to get out. On to day 67. Can’t believe I made it this far, never want to have to claw myself back up from where I was.
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Just thinking. It is truly crazy that my mind can go from oh thank goodness I woke up sober and then switch so quickly mid-day. It is just mind blowing. But the only way to get that instantaneous mindset swap to ever change is sobriety. The longer we stay sober the more chance our mind has to heal and slowly start to inch towards a peaceful mind in the afternoon as well.
I'm not sure there was a point there... but I felt like I had to get it out. Lol. Ignore me if that made no sense at all.
I'm not sure there was a point there... but I felt like I had to get it out. Lol. Ignore me if that made no sense at all.
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So I got railroaded last night, by myself of course.
My partner rang when I finished work and told me were kid free and my brain went into over drive!
We normally have a couple of drinks when we don't have the kids so of course my brain when stupid, I nearly succeeded but instead of turning left at the traffic lights I drove straight to the bottle shop and bought wine and drank it.
I was expecting this so I need to be better prepared for surprises and put a plan into place to stop myself.
I am back on the wagon today, I will jot give up..
My partner rang when I finished work and told me were kid free and my brain went into over drive!
We normally have a couple of drinks when we don't have the kids so of course my brain when stupid, I nearly succeeded but instead of turning left at the traffic lights I drove straight to the bottle shop and bought wine and drank it.
I was expecting this so I need to be better prepared for surprises and put a plan into place to stop myself.
I am back on the wagon today, I will jot give up..
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Originally Posted by ReadyAtLast
Thanks New. How much exercise do you do and what type? I am going to do 1/2 hour brisk walking every day after work. It doesn't sound much but I will build up from there. have to start somewhere. I figure it will help me lose weight, tone up and help my mental health too.
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Day 5 down. Thanks class, this thread is helping.
Citrus - I hear ya!!! Woke up full of the joys, 10 hours later, stressed from work and its oh wine would help. Moved on through it with help of a long phone call with an old friend and some cooking. But it's interesting to observe the games that go on in your own head! Makes me wonder all the crazy I'm missing that's kicking off in there.
Ate too much chocolate, but I'll take it for another day
Citrus - I hear ya!!! Woke up full of the joys, 10 hours later, stressed from work and its oh wine would help. Moved on through it with help of a long phone call with an old friend and some cooking. But it's interesting to observe the games that go on in your own head! Makes me wonder all the crazy I'm missing that's kicking off in there.
Ate too much chocolate, but I'll take it for another day
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I was expecting this so I need to be better prepared for surprises and put a plan into place to stop myself.
I am back on the wagon today, I will jot give up
I am back on the wagon today, I will jot give up
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
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Originally Posted by ReadyAtLast
Thanks New. How much exercise do you do and what type? I am going to do 1/2 hour brisk walking every day after work. It doesn't sound much but I will build up from there. have to start somewhere. I figure it will help me lose weight, tone up and help my mental health too.
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Originally Posted by Citrus
Just thinking. It is truly crazy that my mind can go from oh thank goodness I woke up sober and then switch so quickly mid-day. It is just mind blowing. But the only way to get that instantaneous mindset swap to ever change is sobriety. The longer we stay sober the more chance our mind has to heal and slowly start to inch towards a peaceful mind in the afternoon as well.
I'm not sure there was a point there... but I felt like I had to get it out. Lol. Ignore me if that made no sense at all.
I'm not sure there was a point there... but I felt like I had to get it out. Lol. Ignore me if that made no sense at all.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
I'm a big fan of plans as you know
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
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https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
D
This morning I realised that I am an alcoholic, such an ugly word that I rejected out of shame due to the stigma attached too it but I guess I have to face it one day..
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