| sydneyman | 05-17-2019 11:15 AM |
190 days...
Don't post often here anymore but SR will always have a special place in my heart.
Today is 190 days sober. Life is 10/10 could not be any better. I am waiting for the bubble to burst.
I have committed 1000% to my recovery and its lots of hard work. I had almost recovery burn out for a while and had to step back a bit for a while and put my partner up there with my recovery. When I was drinking the bottle was my priority, I was a selfish drunk and my whole world was about drinking. Now in recovery I have gone the other way where it has become my priority. It should be but at the same time I need to nurture my loving supporting partner and give him the attention he deserves. So that's what I have decided to do for a week. Put him on the pedestal and concentrate on him and be extra kind and loving. He is super proud of me and how I am going. He has almost quit drinking himself as he doesn't want to drink by himself (he is a normie) so he just doesn't drink at home anymore at all. Our relationship has never been better. We have no arguments over stupid trivial things. We can have adult conversations and disagree on issues but discuss these now rather than throw drunken tantrums. My life has completely turned around. I am down to reference checks for a position with an airline that had 6000 initial applicants and they want to recruit 230-250. Unbelievable. This would never been possible before.
7 months ago I was a daily drinker with almost a 30 year long drug/drinking/party/club scene career. I used cocaine for the hangovers and to function and then drink and around around in the vicious cycle I went. Sobriety has been the best gift I have been given. I nurture it, I do not take it for granted and I am grateful to having another go at real life. So far its so much better than that hideous sad existence I used to call life before. | 