another day 1 Hey guys, Back to square one today. Ended up getting a job at the gym which is fine, for now. Full-time hours and I'm learning more about exercise and fitness. Last Monday, pool league. 3 weeks sober and I made an excuse and got a beer which of course turned into 6 pints. Got drunk and high and puked about 10 times on the way home.. Was incredibly ****** up. The switch is turned on. Yesterday and the day before I smoked with my co worker. Half the employees there are potheads. Today, of course, I'm all in my head. Sad. I can't seem to change. A few weeks and I'm back to it. Are things that bad? I'm not sure. Am I living a good life? Probably not. Am I being too hard on myself? Am I expecting too much? It's stupid to think if things were different because they aren't. This is where I am in life. Why can't I get sober for good? I can't seem to truly change. I have work tomorrow but I want to go back out tonight and do more. What's wrong with me? I must really hate myself... Since I've joined this forum I've had the most sober time and objectively I have improved, but I'm still so far from who I want to be and still, not sober. |
Originally Posted by readyt0change
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Why can't I get sober for good? I can't seem to truly change. I have work tomorrow but I want to go back out tonight and do more. |
Hey, if you're sober today, you're sober. There's gotta be a final day one. Mine was last Sunday. You can do it! |
sounds like some classic self sabotage.....or How to Make Sure I am Never Successful 101. which also conveniently keeps the addict beast fed and hungry. make choices that set you up for success. don't drink, don't smoke pot, wake up sober and ready to tackle your new job tomorrow. |
your goal may be then t just cut back, some people can handle it, others not. You know yourself better than anyone, your history, what worked, what didn't. The choice is yours. |
Hi Ready staying sober ad clean was really hard for me - I think it would have been exponentially harder if I'd kept putting myself in situations where it was easy to drink or smoke. If you're not sure why you're tryign to get and stay sober re-read some of your old threads. Its the old two wolves thing man - good and bad - whatever wolf you feed, that one wins Stop feeding the bad wolf. D |
heres a chip for you https://santafeaa.org/wp-content/upl...ip-24-hour.jpg im going to a meeting later like i do (almost) everyday :thanks |
Originally Posted by readyt0change
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I can't seem to truly change. Pool night three weeks into sobriety doesn't seem wise as it proved too much a temptation. Maybe changes to where you went, what you did, and who you hung out with would be more in line with getting and staying sober. |
Originally Posted by readyt0change
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I made an excuse and got a beer which of course turned into 6 pints. |
It's happens to lots of people tomorrow is a new day and all we have is today to be sober. One day at a time! |
how are you today readyt0change? |
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