TWTOM's Accountability Thread
 

Today is day 5.
The withdrawal this time was worse than any other withdrawal I have experienced. And if it ever happens again, I may not live through it.

But it's not gonna happen again because this is my "aha" moment. I will never drink again and I will never change my mind. No matter what.

....the last part.

I used to think "never again....." I went through the wringer....now it's "I'll never say 'never' again." cuz it would keep happening again and again and again.

Now, what's different is that I don't think about it in that way anymore, I think and take pro active steps towards my recovery, took drastic measures, come on here cuz it keeps me going, but I have other resources as well.

I still have cravings, but I don't like to dwell on them or think negatively. I don't want to write down all the cons or "play the tape forward," it's too much thinking about things that weigh me down, I want to think pro's and forward. For me, it helps more that way.

I just think about all the negativity and sadness alcohol brought to my life. I don't even have a chance if I drink.

And then I think about the positives of sobriety. Right off the bat:
1. Clearer head
2. Healthier body
3. More genuine person
4. More positive person
5. More honest person
6. The ability to work toward something
7. Money saved
8. I eat healthier

Awesome !!

My mantra is 'I won't drink, no matter what and I will not change my mind'. Kinda removed it from the time continuum. But I do revert to the just for today idea when all else fails.....I figure, how bad can it be if I hit the pillow sober?

Bad days, weeks, even months won't kill me. Booze certainly will tho.

Great job. Happy for you.

Good for you! :hug:

TWTOM - and the list will go on too. Life won't be perfect, it's not perfect for anyone, but you have so much more to gain rather than lose.
Also accepting that there is and will always be a void in all of us, a void that no one, not even yourself can fill and allowing it as being a part of you and all of us.
I don't know of anyone who in their time of death felt their life was 100% fulfilled. It may sound negative, but accepting that there will always be a part that's missing actually helps me. You can't fill it with alcohol, food, shopping, money etc. just let it be as a part of nature.

Well this sounds a lot better than your other posts from the past few days.

If your eyes open and you can take a breath, there's hope.

Getting sick and tired of being sick and tired is a great motivator. Let that fuel your sobriety. There is nothing but opportunity in front of you. Believe that. Don't let alcohol steal another minute of your time.

There's **** to do!

Support to you.

Today is one week sober. Withdrawal was mostly over on Thursday, so today I feel almost normal. And darn happy :)

Congrats on the first of many sober weeks! :)

congrats on your week TWTOM :)

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One week is great. Keep building on that. Get the poison out of your system. Then find your way to a better place. You have the power in you to create the life you deserve.

Support to you TWTOM.

Today is 9 days :)
I almost forgot about it, I've been so busy today.

A week ago, my heart was racing and I felt like I was gonna throw up constantly. I also couldn't sleep or think.
That part is pretty vivid.

Congrats on TWTOM :)

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Nine days sober is great! :) Keep going, it gets better. :hug:

Keep crushin it, dude. You're doing great.

Today is 10 days sober.
I have had a great day :)

well done TWTOM :)
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Happy to hear. Congrats to you.