My year of sobriety
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My year of sobriety
Hey folks.
Today I am 1 year and 10 days sober. 375 days since I last drank alcohol.
I cannot quite believe I am able to write this. I dreamt of sobriety but didn't think it would be something I could or would achieve. But here I am.
By the Grace of a loving God, AA and SR I have not had to pick up a drink for 375 days and today by miracles of all miracles I do not even want to.
The last year has been a real rollercoaster of a ride for me. I have been drinking for 25 years and drugging before that, I had no clue whatsoever how to handle life sober. I had no idea how to handle my emotions sober! Sad? Drink! Happy? Drink? Angry?? Drink drink!!! Bored? Oh hell yep drink. Tired. Drink. Resentful. Drink. You get the picture? Lol.
I have now experienced all of those emotions and many more, sober, and haven't had to pick up a drink on any of them!! I am actually loving experiencing feelings now , good AND bad because it means I am alive!!! And not just physically alive. Mentally too. Because for many years I was dead inside and my alcoholism would have killed me physically too eventually.
For anyone who is struggling today, there is hope. I am living proof of that. Please do not put off your decision to stay sober any longer than you have already. If you are an alcoholic like me, you will never be able to control your drinking. Alcoholism is progressive and it only gets worse. Never better. And alcoholism kills! There IS life outside of a bottle!!. A far more beautiful, meaningful and rewarding one too. Not perfect, oh no Haha far from it. But a million times better than the one inside the bottle.
Today I have real moments of genuine happiness and laughter and of peace and serenity. I am a sober and present mummy to my beautiful soon to be7 year old daughter , a kind and loving daughter who's parents now have peace of mind , a good sibling, friend and employee. I sleep all through the night(!), I can get up in the morning guilt and shame free, knowing I haven't drunk text or called someone or upset someone, or (ugh) been intimate with someone I may not have been sober, I know when my daughter is with me she is safe, I haven't got behind the wheel of a car intoxicated, I haven't woken up feeling suicidal once, I dont feel despair or terror like I did when I was drinking. I am learning how to put boundaries into place, what I will not tolerate from others, my self esteem and self worth are improving. Hell, EVERYTHING is improving.
The keys to my sobriety have been acceptance, willingness, honesty and openness.
I want to thank everyone on SR for sharing their strengths and their struggles, all the mods who give their time and share their experiences to help others, especially Dee, and of course my amazing class of April's 2018's who have been with me since day 1.... Daisybelle, Blusey, Viper, Kgirl, Erratic and Nichole and you too Strawberry although you jumped ship lol! And who I now consider friends. I could not have done this alone.
♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️🙏
Today I am 1 year and 10 days sober. 375 days since I last drank alcohol.
I cannot quite believe I am able to write this. I dreamt of sobriety but didn't think it would be something I could or would achieve. But here I am.
By the Grace of a loving God, AA and SR I have not had to pick up a drink for 375 days and today by miracles of all miracles I do not even want to.
The last year has been a real rollercoaster of a ride for me. I have been drinking for 25 years and drugging before that, I had no clue whatsoever how to handle life sober. I had no idea how to handle my emotions sober! Sad? Drink! Happy? Drink? Angry?? Drink drink!!! Bored? Oh hell yep drink. Tired. Drink. Resentful. Drink. You get the picture? Lol.
I have now experienced all of those emotions and many more, sober, and haven't had to pick up a drink on any of them!! I am actually loving experiencing feelings now , good AND bad because it means I am alive!!! And not just physically alive. Mentally too. Because for many years I was dead inside and my alcoholism would have killed me physically too eventually.
For anyone who is struggling today, there is hope. I am living proof of that. Please do not put off your decision to stay sober any longer than you have already. If you are an alcoholic like me, you will never be able to control your drinking. Alcoholism is progressive and it only gets worse. Never better. And alcoholism kills! There IS life outside of a bottle!!. A far more beautiful, meaningful and rewarding one too. Not perfect, oh no Haha far from it. But a million times better than the one inside the bottle.
Today I have real moments of genuine happiness and laughter and of peace and serenity. I am a sober and present mummy to my beautiful soon to be7 year old daughter , a kind and loving daughter who's parents now have peace of mind , a good sibling, friend and employee. I sleep all through the night(!), I can get up in the morning guilt and shame free, knowing I haven't drunk text or called someone or upset someone, or (ugh) been intimate with someone I may not have been sober, I know when my daughter is with me she is safe, I haven't got behind the wheel of a car intoxicated, I haven't woken up feeling suicidal once, I dont feel despair or terror like I did when I was drinking. I am learning how to put boundaries into place, what I will not tolerate from others, my self esteem and self worth are improving. Hell, EVERYTHING is improving.
The keys to my sobriety have been acceptance, willingness, honesty and openness.
I want to thank everyone on SR for sharing their strengths and their struggles, all the mods who give their time and share their experiences to help others, especially Dee, and of course my amazing class of April's 2018's who have been with me since day 1.... Daisybelle, Blusey, Viper, Kgirl, Erratic and Nichole and you too Strawberry although you jumped ship lol! And who I now consider friends. I could not have done this alone.
♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️🙏
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"By the Grace of a loving God, AA and SR I have not had to pick up a drink for 375 days and today by miracles of all miracles I do not even want to."
Nice job!!!
Discomfort is often the price of admission to a meaningful life. You sound like a woman with new values, motivation, gratitude and purpose, that has become a new creation. Old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
Nice job!!!
Discomfort is often the price of admission to a meaningful life. You sound like a woman with new values, motivation, gratitude and purpose, that has become a new creation. Old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
Here's to many more sober years! 
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Suzy, my lovely, sober friend, I'm so proud of all you've achieved and so grateful to be on this journey with you. Many congratulations on 375 days. Onwards and upwards now to the next 12 months.
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May many more sober blessings be bestowed
upon you for yrs to come. Hold onto your recovery
lifelines and never let go and live each day
incorporating the tools and knowledge of your
program of recovery on a continuous bases.
Congratulations...!!!!!
upon you for yrs to come. Hold onto your recovery
lifelines and never let go and live each day
incorporating the tools and knowledge of your
program of recovery on a continuous bases.
Congratulations...!!!!!
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