In Europe visiting my younger sister for a week. We have never spent any sober time together since our childhood. I was always drugged or drunk previously. My sister understandably had reservations about me staying with her. I have been a total douche bag in front of her in my active addiction. Now only a couple of more nights I am happy to say that we had a great brother/sister bonding time. We still have our differences but I can now deal with them in a rational and logical way and respectable way. She could not believe the physical transformation in me. She said she never seen me look so good even comparing me to my younger modelling days. That was of course a great ego boost.
We visited our parents memorial plaques at the cemetery. It was morbid and made me think of my own mortality. I was out of it constantly during their diseases and their funerals. My biggest regret now in my life.
Yesterday I watched Louis Therouxs “drinking to oblivion” I happened to find it taped on her TV. What an eyeopener, raw and in your face look at alcohol
addiction. As I am heading towards 6 months of sobriety my life has completely turned around. I dont want to even give a thought of drinking again. I have cemented pandoras box totally shut