Hey guys... so Day 21 here. Going ok. Bit exhausted from probably working out a bit too hard yesterday, so trying to not judge myself for resting a bit today!
I had an invite to a party at a pub .. I had said yes to it about a week ago. It's a lady from my work who is really lovely, and she knows I don't drink. But yeah, doesn't know WHY I don't drink.
I had said yes, because I had managed to have dinner with a good friend at a restaurant the other week, and I was I think Day 5... anyway I knew he would order a beer and I was worried about how it would make me feel but I did it anyway and I had a ginger beer that was delicious anyway (no alcohol, just a softdrink I do enjoy). So THAT went ok, and I really enjoyed the time.
But I am not feeling I can go to a *pub* yet with a large group of people no doubt many offering me a drink because it's a birthday party at a pub.
I feel nervous and sweaty at the idea of even going, anxious even. I don't want to be in that position and I feel like I underestimated everything when I said yes. I'm nervous in social situations at the best of times, and this is REALLY difficult because ..well.. its a pub. Am I overreacting?
I don't want to go only because it's just too full on and I'm so early in my sobriety and I've been doing so well but yeah.. feel like I'm not up for a pub environment for a very long time.
Any thoughts or comments are appreciated...