Originally Posted by eachdayanewday
Today is a hard day....all I want to do is drink. Nothing really triggering me either. I think because I used to be so social and now I'm not so I fill my time with alcohol. I notice when I get depressed I just want to drink. The only time I really don't have any cravings is when I am taking my diazepam.It really helps me. But I don't like taking it. Any advice?
My advice would be similar to what Carl suggested earlier. There's a distinct difference between just "not drinking" and living sober. If you just quit drinking and don't have any plan for what to do then it's almost a certainly that you'll drink again.
As others have suggested, there are many ways to go about getting sober - some very structured like recovery meetings/rehab, and others revolve around more self-paced/self learned procedures. If you haven't read this link yet I would highly recommend it. https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...at-we-did.html (Recovery Programs & What to Expect (What We Did))
One thing that I feel is universal to any method or program of recovery though is acceptance that you simply cannot drink any amount of alcohol without consequence. Doesn't matter how long you stay dry for - all it takes is one drink and you'll be right back where you started. Accepting that is a big thing..but necessary in my opinion.