That inner peace..at 5 months...
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That inner peace..at 5 months...
I am past 5 months sober now. Loving life and sobriety. This is really the new normal. The inner peace has arrived, the calmness of the mind, the good spirit within. I lost it so many years ago and now have it back. That innocent child like happiness is back.
I don't romanticise alcohol at all. I always remember where it took me, the three decades of daily drinking. My life was like a horror movie looking back at it now. Horrid. My weekends have become just that. Not an opportunity to just drink and get out of it but actually enjoy it and be part of life. The compulsiveness of my active addiction is in the past. I was erratic and had only the bottle on y mind, constantly. I was playing mind games, lying, forging medical certificates to be able to have time and drink at home rather than go to work.
I have changed as a person. I have grown up. I think as addicts we stop growing and developing as a person. Now I am finding myself and getting to know me. I am surprised how I handle life's situations today. Conflict, compliments and making decisions. My life has turned around at work. I have not been absent from work "sick'" even once and feel that I am a valued team player now. Not the selfish cant wait-to-get-out-of-here-and-drink type anymore.
I have great 100% support from my partner who is constantly surprised these day at how I no longer snap at him or want to argue.
I have no desire to drink again. I have never since my teens been sober this long. This is my 3d attempt to go AF. However, this is the first time I really want sobriety more than the drink. I don't toy with the idea of having a drink in the future. I am open about my recovery to my friends that I still keep in contact with. I socialise with them but of course the dynamics have changed because I have and I don't drink. Perhaps I have become boring in theirs eyes to a certain degree I don't care. I am here for me and my sanity and health. The clarity that I have gained and the understanding of my addiction keeps me sober. I love being a normal "boring" person. I wish I done this many many years ago but then again I don't want to dwell on the past. It has shaped me to the person I am today. My past, the ugly, the not so good and the good. This is now the new chapter in my life. Living a sober life = endless opportunities. I have finally found freedom.
I don't romanticise alcohol at all. I always remember where it took me, the three decades of daily drinking. My life was like a horror movie looking back at it now. Horrid. My weekends have become just that. Not an opportunity to just drink and get out of it but actually enjoy it and be part of life. The compulsiveness of my active addiction is in the past. I was erratic and had only the bottle on y mind, constantly. I was playing mind games, lying, forging medical certificates to be able to have time and drink at home rather than go to work.
I have changed as a person. I have grown up. I think as addicts we stop growing and developing as a person. Now I am finding myself and getting to know me. I am surprised how I handle life's situations today. Conflict, compliments and making decisions. My life has turned around at work. I have not been absent from work "sick'" even once and feel that I am a valued team player now. Not the selfish cant wait-to-get-out-of-here-and-drink type anymore.
I have great 100% support from my partner who is constantly surprised these day at how I no longer snap at him or want to argue.
I have no desire to drink again. I have never since my teens been sober this long. This is my 3d attempt to go AF. However, this is the first time I really want sobriety more than the drink. I don't toy with the idea of having a drink in the future. I am open about my recovery to my friends that I still keep in contact with. I socialise with them but of course the dynamics have changed because I have and I don't drink. Perhaps I have become boring in theirs eyes to a certain degree I don't care. I am here for me and my sanity and health. The clarity that I have gained and the understanding of my addiction keeps me sober. I love being a normal "boring" person. I wish I done this many many years ago but then again I don't want to dwell on the past. It has shaped me to the person I am today. My past, the ugly, the not so good and the good. This is now the new chapter in my life. Living a sober life = endless opportunities. I have finally found freedom.
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Amazing Sydneyman! Congratulations! I am hoping for exactly this. I am only 40 days in and allowing myself time out of normal life to get over the initial physical withdrawal.I can identify with you about your friends - I am terrified of the social aspect of not drinking as all my friends drink. These are the times I fear I might say “I’ll just have one” and then I know it will be game over and another black our night. What was your secret to this?
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Lou.. some friends had to go, they were my drug/booze buddies ONLY. Like you I would say 100% of my friends do drink. But 99% are “normies”. So I can have a friendship with them not involving booze. Sometimes they drink around me sometimes not. I ask them to bring their own if they come to my place. We can do stuff together like lunches, chats etc where no booze is involved. Their lives dont evolve around the bottle like mine did. They respect my decision and support it. Thats what a true friend is.
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