Hello New here Day 3...
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Hello New here Day 3...
I've been lurking for a couple weeks now. Last week I ended up in the hospital for 3 days for supervised detox after blowing a .487. I had one more binge on Fri and Sat where I drank from sun up to sun down. Spent all day detoxing myself Sunday. I do have a history of anxiety and panic and just made it worse by drinking. Anyways, today is the start of Day 3 and things are looking up but it's hard because I still have the urge and the anxiety. Glad to be here and I'm ready to put in in the work!
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Originally Posted by Sc0ot3r2019 
I've been lurking for a couple weeks now. Last week I ended up in the hospital for 3 days for supervised detox after blowing a .487. I had one more binge on Fri and Sat where I drank from sun up to sun down. Spent all day detoxing myself Sunday. I do have a history of anxiety and panic and just made it worse by drinking. Anyways, today is the start of Day 3 and things are looking up but it's hard because I still have the urge and the anxiety. Glad to be here and I'm ready to put in in the work!
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Great to have you with us, Sc0ot. That is a terrifying bac - I had a .32 once & was told I was 'amazingly lucid' (not something to be proud of). I'm so glad you survived & are now determined to get free of it. This is a great place for talking things over with those who actually understand. Welcome!
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Thank you everyone! Hevyn- I was also very lucid and remember everything about that night that I called for help. It was a very scary feeling! CRRHCC- Usually for it's a bit of sadness and loneliness. Me and my ex are split and she keeps the kids thru the week. I'm not used to living alone and I am working on finding things to do that will keep me busy and more active in the community. It was also a feeling of if I don't drink I won't sleep or my emotions will get to me. Which as we all know happens anyway!
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Welcome! I'm glad you decided to post.
I also used alcohol to self-medicate anxiety/depression. Of course, it made the anxiety much worse and created a whole other set of problems to deal with. I'm sure you will feel the anxiety now, in the very early days. But, have faith that it will ease up and you will be able to find healthy ways to deal with your anxiety.
I also used alcohol to self-medicate anxiety/depression. Of course, it made the anxiety much worse and created a whole other set of problems to deal with. I'm sure you will feel the anxiety now, in the very early days. But, have faith that it will ease up and you will be able to find healthy ways to deal with your anxiety.
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Originally Posted by Ghostlight1
Hello and welcome.
But with all due respect, if you blew a .487 you'd be dead.
But with all due respect, if you blew a .487 you'd be dead.
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Hi! I’m new here and also on day one. I too use drinking to help numb my depression and anxiety but in turn, it makes it so much worse. I’m also a binge drinker and drink a 750ml or more on a binge in one night. Scary stuff thinking about it. A normal person would possibly die drinking that much. We never have to feel this awful again. I want recovery more then ever. We can do this!!
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Hi SC, glad you have come here. With the anxiety history, just wondering if you’ve talked to your doctor about taking a prescription, at least temporarily? The early days of sobriety can be tough, and even after the physical withdrawals end, anxiety can still be bad for a while. It took me about six months to level out emotionally. A prescription really helped. Also have you thought about a long term sobriety plan? Therapy was really helpful for me for the first year, and I still go occasionally. I also practice yoga, meditation, gratitude and exercise. Making wellness and mindfulness a part of my life has really helped
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During my worst drinking period, I also drank 750ml of vodka per day, more on weekends. That went on for about 2 years. When I tried to stop one day, I went through horrible withdrawals, severe in nature. My solution was to switch to beer, which was better as I didn't blackout nearly as much, but I was still drinking alcoholically. The beer made me gain weight fast as I needed a lot of it due to high tolerance.
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