First night without a drink
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Join Date: Apr 2019
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Hi Wurzel. glad you getting through. Thanks for your advice with water - my first night last night, difficult but I had 5L drinking water bottle. And it helped. So thank you. Not much sleep, lot of problems, but got through and tonight is night 2 for me. its 23:05 here - downloaded some old AC/DC and I'll doze and listen to this and maybe get some sleep.
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Originally Posted by Wurzel 
Thanks Kaily
i have kept this underwraps for a long time , family dont know as seperated and i live alone and only drink at home.
appreciate being able to just tell someone, thank you
i have kept this underwraps for a long time , family dont know as seperated and i live alone and only drink at home.
appreciate being able to just tell someone, thank you
Welcome Wurzel,
I can relate to your above statement %100. It describes my last few years of drinking to a tee, trying to hide it, lived alone and drank alone. It was a very dull, painful, lonely life. I wasn't living, I was barley surviving in the end. I wasn't even enjoying my drinking anymore and I was drinking more than ever. I knew I had a major problem and told myself many times "today I'm not going to drink"; and I never made it.... Because I was trying to do it alone. I hit a place in my life where I needed help and support. I found support here and felt people understood how I was feeling. This is a great place to start, browse around find your way, ask questions, reach out daily.
Happy to hear you made it through the day/night.
Best Regards
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Join Date: Mar 2019
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Hi all
so got around 4 hrs of restful sleep but woke up around 6 am thinking what where i could go at that time to buy beer.
got dressed and even got as far as walking to the car then it hit me that if i did this would never end.
so posted my own car keys through my letter box effectively locking myself out and away from my keys then walked to my brothers house about 4 miles away as i new that there were no shops on the way and he had my spare key.
got there and explained had locked myself out and by mistake and had left phone in house.
so got spare key and brother gave me lift home.
hated lying and it sounds irrational but couldnt think what to do :-(
but got through another night.
wurzel
so got around 4 hrs of restful sleep but woke up around 6 am thinking what where i could go at that time to buy beer.
got dressed and even got as far as walking to the car then it hit me that if i did this would never end.
so posted my own car keys through my letter box effectively locking myself out and away from my keys then walked to my brothers house about 4 miles away as i new that there were no shops on the way and he had my spare key.
got there and explained had locked myself out and by mistake and had left phone in house.
so got spare key and brother gave me lift home.
hated lying and it sounds irrational but couldnt think what to do :-(
but got through another night.
wurzel
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Powers Lake, Wisconsin
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Wurzel,
Something inside of you wants to be sober more than it wants to drink!
That is a tremendous breakthrough!
You did not give into your Addictive Voice (AV). Great job! Stay strong. You have it inside of yourself to stop the alcoholic madness!
Something inside of you wants to be sober more than it wants to drink!
That is a tremendous breakthrough!
You did not give into your Addictive Voice (AV). Great job! Stay strong. You have it inside of yourself to stop the alcoholic madness!
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Originally Posted by Wurzel
Hi all
so got around 4 hrs of restful sleep but woke up around 6 am thinking what where i could go at that time to buy beer.
got dressed and even got as far as walking to the car then it hit me that if i did this would never end.
so posted my own car keys through my letter box effectively locking myself out and away from my keys then walked to my brothers house about 4 miles away as i new that there were no shops on the way and he had my spare key.
got there and explained had locked myself out and by mistake and had left phone in house.
so got spare key and brother gave me lift home.
hated lying and it sounds irrational but couldnt think what to do :-(
but got through another night.
wurzel
so got around 4 hrs of restful sleep but woke up around 6 am thinking what where i could go at that time to buy beer.
got dressed and even got as far as walking to the car then it hit me that if i did this would never end.
so posted my own car keys through my letter box effectively locking myself out and away from my keys then walked to my brothers house about 4 miles away as i new that there were no shops on the way and he had my spare key.
got there and explained had locked myself out and by mistake and had left phone in house.
so got spare key and brother gave me lift home.
hated lying and it sounds irrational but couldnt think what to do :-(
but got through another night.
wurzel
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London, England
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I think what you did is great Wurzel. You have to really battle the addiction which you clearly did when you put your keys through your own letter box. Take that AV!
In my very early days/weeks I had to go everywhere without any money so that I couldn't act on a sudden urgency to buy alcohol. Another thing I did was walk away my cravings, sometimes I would walk miles and miles in a forest then come home exhausted eat dinner and go to bed. Next day same again.
Hope you sleep better tonight.
If not, it will come soon.
In my very early days/weeks I had to go everywhere without any money so that I couldn't act on a sudden urgency to buy alcohol. Another thing I did was walk away my cravings, sometimes I would walk miles and miles in a forest then come home exhausted eat dinner and go to bed. Next day same again.
Hope you sleep better tonight.
If not, it will come soon.
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Join Date: Mar 2019
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Hey guys
so better night last night , kept myself busy till bed time then got into bed around midnight and prepared myself for another night of ups and downs.
closed my eyes and counted sheep for a bit.
then opened them again to be completely surprised by sunlight !!!!.
slept 10 hrs straight through !!!!!
bizzarely its around 3pm now and i feel exhausted and could go to bed now.
have a feeling going through me of positivity and hope which i have not felt for a very long time.
Cravings are very strong today and am quietly saying to myself i dont need to listen.
looked in the mirror earlier and whilst i look like battered poo i smiled back at myself.
check in tomorrow guys and thank you all
so better night last night , kept myself busy till bed time then got into bed around midnight and prepared myself for another night of ups and downs.
closed my eyes and counted sheep for a bit.
then opened them again to be completely surprised by sunlight !!!!.
slept 10 hrs straight through !!!!!
bizzarely its around 3pm now and i feel exhausted and could go to bed now.
have a feeling going through me of positivity and hope which i have not felt for a very long time.
Cravings are very strong today and am quietly saying to myself i dont need to listen.
looked in the mirror earlier and whilst i look like battered poo i smiled back at myself.
check in tomorrow guys and thank you all
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Location: Baltimore, Maryland
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You're doing it, Wurzel!
It's a week now, if my calculation is correct?
When I read that you smiled at yourself in the mirror, it brought a smile to my face too. How great is that? It won't be long until you look a whole lot less like poo.
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It's a week now, if my calculation is correct?
When I read that you smiled at yourself in the mirror, it brought a smile to my face too. How great is that? It won't be long until you look a whole lot less like poo.
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