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Well this is fun.
Hey ya'll. Day 213 for me. I don't post a whole lot anymore, because I was starting to feel a bit needy, but I am always lurking....
I just had some thoughts I wanted to share. What got me thinking was the quote below, from one of our own...
"Sometimes the remarkableness of sobriety is found in the most mundane things" -LessGravity
It’s just a feeling that I had over the weekend, and it’s a feeling I’m not used to, and I think it marks an important step for me as a person. I often think about my life, and how I got to where I am. The depression, anxiety, mental health...all the **** that caused all that, and what ultimately led to my drinking. It makes me sad. But then...I think about where I am now. Last Saturday, I was just sitting outside, snapping pics of my tea and jotting a few thoughts down(the usual nonsense I fill my time with)...and I was just at complete peace. Like Gravity said....the remarkableness of sobriety is found in the most mundane things sometimes. Just sitting there. Not a care in the world. Healthy. Relaxed. Enjoying the weather. Sipping my tea. Then I got a text from my sister, and she asked if I could come over and help her and her husband out with a few things. They needed help and knew I would help. They knew I could help, and wanted my help. I’m helpful. Not a burden. For soooo many years all I ever felt like was a burden. So, I happily threw on some fresh clothes, and I went to help. It's like a 30 minutes drive, and I even enjoyed the drive. Blasted music with the windows down....perfect. I was in a state of pure joy. Pure joy for NO REASON at all. Coming from someone who had to abuse alcohol just to try and stop the pain and sadness...
The feeling overwhelmed me, and still gives me chills.
Happy Wednesday, ya'll. Love you all, stay determined, stay blessed, never quit.
I just had some thoughts I wanted to share. What got me thinking was the quote below, from one of our own...
"Sometimes the remarkableness of sobriety is found in the most mundane things" -LessGravity
It’s just a feeling that I had over the weekend, and it’s a feeling I’m not used to, and I think it marks an important step for me as a person. I often think about my life, and how I got to where I am. The depression, anxiety, mental health...all the **** that caused all that, and what ultimately led to my drinking. It makes me sad. But then...I think about where I am now. Last Saturday, I was just sitting outside, snapping pics of my tea and jotting a few thoughts down(the usual nonsense I fill my time with)...and I was just at complete peace. Like Gravity said....the remarkableness of sobriety is found in the most mundane things sometimes. Just sitting there. Not a care in the world. Healthy. Relaxed. Enjoying the weather. Sipping my tea. Then I got a text from my sister, and she asked if I could come over and help her and her husband out with a few things. They needed help and knew I would help. They knew I could help, and wanted my help. I’m helpful. Not a burden. For soooo many years all I ever felt like was a burden. So, I happily threw on some fresh clothes, and I went to help. It's like a 30 minutes drive, and I even enjoyed the drive. Blasted music with the windows down....perfect. I was in a state of pure joy. Pure joy for NO REASON at all. Coming from someone who had to abuse alcohol just to try and stop the pain and sadness...
The feeling overwhelmed me, and still gives me chills.
Happy Wednesday, ya'll. Love you all, stay determined, stay blessed, never quit.
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Congratulations on day 213! That’s amazing! It’s interesting you say your sister called you for some help and you were able to drive there and go! My experience when I was drinking was that I couldn’t do anything because I was drunk. People would invite me places and I would make all these excuses. I’m too tired, I never get to relax, I have a headache. You could not rely on me for anything! Congrats on living a beautiful life!
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Originally Posted by Takeaction 
My experience when I was drinking was that I couldn’t do anything because I was drunk. People would invite me places and I would make all these excuses. I’m too tired, I never get to relax, I have a headache. You could not rely on me for anything!
Well, one thing I had going right in my head as a drunk is I never let myself drive.
But thanks ya'll for the positive comments....glad to know my posts make a difference!
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WhoDey - that was perfect - thank you so much. 
Your posts are always appreciated - you're upbeat & supportive. You don't come across as needy - but even if you were - we are here to hold each other up.
Your posts are always appreciated - you're upbeat & supportive. You don't come across as needy - but even if you were - we are here to hold each other up.
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I keep having moments like this too. This weekend I was sitting in a coffee shop by myself reading a book just feeling completely happy and at peace. I've started walking to work as well and I found myself this morning walking with a massive grin on my face for no reason at all other than life is frickin' beautiful and I never realised that when I was drinking!
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Originally Posted by lunar
Congrats on 213, and great post!
Thanks!
How's Dwayne doing?
That was a cool photo of him- any others?
I'm sure we'd love to see.
Thanks!
How's Dwayne doing?
That was a cool photo of him- any others?
I'm sure we'd love to see.
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What a great post. I get those moments sometimes - just a feeling of peace and joy that I never thought I'd have again when I was ruining my life with booze. They often happen at the most "mundane" of times, too. Nothing special going on, just an appreciation of being able to enjoy the simple things in life, when I slow down a bit and stop worrying about every little thing, which I still tend to do.
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