ulfr

Am back with my tail between my legs back to AA thanks to a member talking to me today in another setting i od'ed on Friday didnt drink but i hurt those that love me ...my husband dont trust me with money he will not let me go anywhere on my own i can only go to meeting with £ 1
i know i need to build trust with him told him i'll never do that to him again i was selfish thinking about my own pain my dad killed himself that hurt i think that no one would miss me because i hate myself so much i should do a gratitude list every time i think like this
am 5 months with out a drink yet am a dry drunk because of my thinking
its my thinking thats the problem
am back at meetings working with my higher power my dad not following any faith but have spiritual thinking of helping others and work the steps and find a sponsor

Dee74

I'm really sorry you ODed WolfsChld but I'm glad you decided to go back to AA.
Did you need to go to hospital?

D

ulfr

yes i did am ok psychically mentally not so much am taking it a day at a time
glad to be back here missed you all

Anna

I'm glad to see you back and thankfully you are okay. I hope that you find some peace back at AA.

PhoenixJ

do lots of meetings. t gives you a good feeling to show yourself you are doing positive things, help set up/down, wash dishes, write down in a journal at home your thoughts and feelings. meetings are good too- to be around people and not hide away at home

support to you

Hevyn

Hi WC - I'm so glad you're ok too. Good that you wanted to return to meetings. Drinking seems like an answer when we're in pain - but it never gives us the relief we think it will. Glad you posted about what happened.