sydneyman

128 days sober. The smell and thought of drinking now not only scares me but actually revolts me. I have gone from one extreme to the other?
The idea of having a drink to me is becoming more and more foreign. Did any one else around these days feel the same? Is this a stage?
I must say I like this stage if that's what it is!

NerfThis

I'd imagine it's different depending on person and factors like when we chose to quit etc. For me, the idea of drinking alcohol revolts me. I connect alcohol with a sense of loss of control and poor decision making. I hate not being in control of what I'm doing.

However I still host parties and pour cocktails for people and the smell of them doesn't bother me even if the thought of drinking them does. I guess I still like the smell, as I do smell of cigarettes even though I haven't smoked one for well over a year.

Evoo

No... certainly not yet. The smell of alcohol is enticing and makes me want a drink.

WhoDeyPI

I have no desire to drink it, but it doesn't disgust me nor do I find it revolting, just no interest. When I go out with people who are drinking I'm perfectly comfortable being sober, but still glance at a drink and think....hm, I wonder what that tastes like. Sloppy drunk loud people disgust me now though.....and I imagine I was one of them.

least

It took me a while to get to that point, close to a year sober. It was like a switch had been flipped in my brain.

Gottalife

Yes and no. The smell and sight of alcohol is not particularly bothersome just like any other chemical smell, but the thought of me drinking is repulsive in the most powerful way. One of the AA promises is "when tempted, we will recoil as if from a hot flame". On the one or two occasions that people have tried to tempt me I have had a powerful adverse reaction.

Talk about losing the power of choice. It seems that I could no more choose to drink today than I used to be able to choose not to drink.

WeThinkNot

This question immediately reminded me of an incident late last year. I was in Las Vegas the weekend of the McGregor UFC fight, all the casinos and lounges were packed to the brim that Saturday night to early Sunday morning.

At about 5:00 am I was still up and playing some video poker at the casino bar when two very drunk guys took a seat and started chatting me up. They flew in from Atlanta to watch the fight and their flight was departing in a few hours. They hadn't even booked a room, they just flew in to watch the fight, get drunk and then leave.

As I watched them throw back a few shots I started to feel nauseous. It took me back to my Vegas trips from a previous life where I would drink nonstop up until checkout and then feel like I was dying on the airplane. I knew they were going to be suffering as well.

I can deal with the sights and smells of alcohol but seeing somebody that drunk does affect my gut negatively.

sydneyman

When my partner "a normie" has a drink I can smell the alcohol in the wine and it smells lethal and so chemically it revolts me. I have no problem being around drinkers etc. Just weird how I have gone from one extreme the other. Perhaps in my active addiction I was just on auto pilot drinking. I do remember how at times I almost had to force drink wine followed by water so I wouldn't throw the alcohol up to keep the effect. I vomited once so much when I was on a 2 week non stop bender drinking straight vodka that my oesophagus burst and blood splattered on the walls. That did not even stop me then.

Dee74

I think most of us have at least some period of time where alcohol revolts us

Some people never lose that revulsion - but alcohol doesn't revolt me (or excite me) these days.

Its not really something I think about too much unless I'm online here?

I'm certainly sensitive to the smell though - I can smell a drinker at a couple of metres.

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Pippo

It's the consequences of drinking alcohol that now disgust me. Not the presence / smell of it. I have no problem being in a social setting where alcohol is present.

I do miss it as an activity, and how it made me feel- it was my only 'hobby'. But I'm not going back, I've made peace with atleast that much.

Zebra1275

I don't like the smell of beer, and the thought of drinking a shot of vodka makes me shudder.

PalmerSage

It doesn't repulse me, but it still scares me - as Gottalife said, I "recoil as if from a hot flame."

Lipstuck

It absolutely revolts me. I think that's the place I had to be in in order to have a chance at escape, and also the materials I used (like the Naked Mind)... Drinking just couldn't be anything I missed or I might regret quitting. I think what revolts me more is the thought of my gross drunk self, when I was drinking it.
I do hope to come to peace with it and lose the negativity of revulsion, without the desire to ever take it back.

Lipstuck

I agree that people who are drinking are way more noticeable to me now, though. Things I missed before- the red faces, the shaking hands, the slurred speech- all make sense now. And the smell. I never want that back.

sydneyman

Yes I was one of them. That revolts me even more..

kinzoku

I found at times it did when I was sober, and at times it didn't.

But maybe its a red herring. Because if it smelled like roses or garbage I'd still be after it. That's the disease right?

SIB

Alcohol no, drunks yes - I can't stand them

day 45

MindfulMan

I like the smell of wine, and I can still tell the grape, style and vintage just from the smell, and pair it with food. I haven't the slightest desire to drink it though.

A friend who just had a baby had NA beer so I had one (yes, I realize it has traces of alcohol in it, one is about 1/8 of an American light beer). It kinda weirded me out because I kept thinking it was going to get me drunk. I had about a third of it and just didn't want it any more. I bought NA beer to drink with Thai food, but it has also lost it's appeal.

If I smell or even look at hard alcohol, particularly brown whisky, I shudder now. I imagine that chemical taste and worse, that horrible taste and smell waking up the next morning after WAY too much to drink.

Worst. Thing. Ever.

Snowydelrico

Horrible to think of pouring that poison down my neck now.
It tightens my throat and sent me in to a state of ptsd once when I opened the fridge to an unexpected opened bottle of wine in there.

I can say my brain is afraid of where that stuff will take me.
I do like my brain, I don’t want to damage it.

The stuff stinks

I used to be a smoker now I can’t stand the smell.
Think it’s the same thing

DriGuy

I haven't given much thought to whether I'm revolted by alcohol. I suppose I am, but somewhat like you, I just don't think about it anymore. I'm definitely glad to be rid of that monkey, but to say I experience revulsion is more of an overstatement.

But with a little reminiscing, I could easily say I am revolted by thoughts of myself and the way I got when I was drinking.