eve123

doggonecarl

You are not experiencing recovery; you are going through the cycle of drinking, quitting, withdrawals, early sobriety, relapse. Rinse and repeat.

The relief comes when you break the cycle and stay sober.

I think the meeting is a good idea. Find someone to take you through the steps. The program works if you work the program.

eve123

eve123

biminiblue

Just don't pick up a drink today and go to the meeting.

One day at a time.

It's a process. Healing takes time.

You won't always feel this way.

Keep going, go to bed sober tonight.

Come back tomorrow.

I didn't work the AA "program" officially but it is a good common sense way to live life. Post here, stay busy, eat well, exercise, try to sleep when I could. That was my "program" in the first month.

aasharon90

If I can give you hope to achieve solid recovery
and change your life around, putting your addiction
to rest for good, one day at a time, like I have for
the past 28 yrs. then I will. Just as doggonecarl
shared, I have done and continue to apply all
that has been taught to me on a daily bases
to achieve health, happiness, honesty and
freedom from my addiction.

You can too without ever picking up
another drink or controlled toxic substance
and returning back to the misery that
come with it.


Even after all these yrs sober, I have never
heard of anyone picking up alcohol again
and was able to enjoy it, control it or make
anything in their life better because of it.


It never worked for me in the beginning
nor will ever work for me today this many
yrs sober. In fact, if I was to ever take a
drink, im pretty sure I will either end up
drunk, crazy, jailed or dead.

I think I will continue applying my program
of recovery on a daily bases to enjoy many
of lifes amazing rewards in a sober manner.

You can too.

SurvivorK

You truly are going through the withdrawals of drinking... I was the exact same way and it took me several attempts to finally get some sobriety time under my belt.

I was sober for 6 years until December 27, 2017 and then I thought I think I can drink again. That was a slippery slope. Did not take long until I was drinking to get drunk, all hours, all days, to numb and get that high of not feeling. I thought it was all worth it.

Finally July 23, 2018 was my last drink. I have 235 days sober and the first 2 weeks absolute hell- the 2nd 2 weeks still hell, little less hell, but hard- the 30-60 days were tough - all of it tough - went to AA - posted here - talked about it - prayed about it - did not give in to the AV. Everyday I try to get one more day, a day at a time. You can do this!!! It's amazing not having that shame, what did I do the night before, why did I do that, why do I feel this way, being so mad at myself, life has been amazing. I forgot how good it could be, sober.

ScottFromWI

The hardest part of getting sober, in my opinion, is not quitting drinking itself but learning how to actually face life on it's own terms.

The AA program is one of many that is designed to teach you how to live your life in a new way - not just how to quit drinking alcohol. You may not agree with how AA specifically does that, but all recovery programs will require a major change in your thinking and approach to life.

AKA - the act of quitting drinking in itself won't solve the other problems in your life. And the change that you will need to make won't happen in 2 weeks...or 2 months. It might take 2 years or more depending on what underlying issues you are dealing with.

tomsteve

youve mentioned the AV in other threads so hows about loookin into AVRT-where the AV is talked about? theres a forum for it here.

awuh1

Although I strongly suggest AA for long term sobriety I also think that a mental health evaluation and/or treatment is often very beneficial. Particularly if there is some suspicion that depression might be part of the process of relapse.

All the best to you eve

eve123

thomas11

Just speaking for myself, in the early days and weeks I was still obsessing about drinking. Thought about it way too much. It slowly faded away. Then there was the day that I crawled into bed realizing that I had not thought about drinking all day, until that moment. That's when the true liberation is felt. Do I still think about drinking, of course. But acting on it is just not an option.

As others have said, just get through today without drinking, worry about tomorrow....tomorrow. Don't drink today.

sugarbear1

Are you convinced in your soul you can't drink safely?

Do you want to try a spiritual life or die a slow and painful alcoholic death? these are choices we have. I had to work the steps with all the desperation I had (and willingness).

Anna

I agree with Scott's comments. The hardest part of recovery is learning to live and deal with life, without alcohol involved. Learning how to deal with emotions was difficult for me. But, stay sober, and move forward and each day will get a bit easier.

Dee74

I'm really glad you feel better today eve

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lifewithart

You are not pathetic, this is a powerful disease that has gripped you. Hold on tight to the meetings, the online community, your sponsor, and your Higher Power. Sending love to you in your recovery.