Its Day 4 for me. I’m feeling great and not waking up during the night from liver pain, dehydration and withdrawal shakes in the mornings. I also have had issues with really bad unexplained bruising all over and have been talking to the doctor about my heart and liver. My mind is clearer and I feel positive.

Ive been here before tho. It’s the two week mark I’m worried about. The issue for me was that I didn’t (and still really haven’t) dealt with why I’m an alcoholic. That’s the hard part I think and the long road ahead.

Ive found that writing down all my reasons, why I did drink, and why I don’t want to, then to do lists of fun things to do during the week, then distraction to do lists and check them off helps (and celebrate the small wins with a positive comment - like I’d say to a friend :))

Having support forums and apps, audible books, meditation apps for bed time, sipping a diet soft drink/juice when I’d normally drink helps. Eating good food, doctors help and a psychologist for the long term plan.

The other issue is my husband is an alcoholic too and that will be challenge, not that I’ll be tempted, but to remember that conversations/behaviour/attitudes are different on an intoxicated/straight level. He’s also an enabler and wants me to be ‘happy’. So that will be a challenge to !always! be strong. I don’t party, but he likes to have groups over for drinks. I managed to stay straight on my last quit. He was encouraging me to drink too though. It’s hard in front of a group of people. I stayed strong though.

Im also giving up smoking at the same time. Double whammy. I’m feeling and thinking positive though.

Thank you you all for your support :)

Thank you both so much, I guess you’re right, I definitely should be putting most of my energy into focusing on my effort not to drink.
Im worried about the 2 week mark if the depression starts up like last time i quit for 2 weeks and gave in to the sadness and loneliness.
I do feel different this time and a lot more self supported and supported through this wonderful forum that I didn’t have last time.
I don’t really want to delve into the dark to think about why 😜🙈

My plan is not to drink again. I’m not bargaining that if I feel I have recovered that I can then drink. I know, as with cigarettes, if I smoke, I will be right back in hell where I started.
I am disappointed that I had been saving (from myself!!!) 2 special bottles of champagne all year!! from our wedding for our anniversary which is next week. They’ll make special gifts for someone else. I hope someone gets married soon so I stop thinking about them.